"I don't deserve anything"
She says
Tears pouring down her cheeks
Like little pieces of her soul
Were they claustrophobic
Or is there a hole where they should be now?
"You deserve everything
That's just Fred"
I tell her while caressing her back
Trying desperately to soothe the pain
"What?"
She says with a break in her voice that hurts to hear
I wish I could all of her's
"Fred is that monster in your head that tells you exactly what you don't need to hear"
"I hate Fred
And I hate me"
She says
I hear the desperation in her voice
"You're my friend
And I love you
Which means that I have to love Fred too
Because he is a part of you
Fred is just pain
He's often forced into these small nooks and cranny's in your mind
But it's dark and scary in there
He thinks he's helping you
And feels he has to come out sometimes
He's just bruised and broken
And that's fine
We all are
I still love you"
She says that she doesn't
She says she wants to die
I know how the world looks right now in her eyes
And it's not beautiful
I tell her that I'm there for her always
And that she's wonderful
That the world is awful and ugly
But also stunning
I tell her that those people don't know her
And that those words in that letter might have hurt her
But do not define her
And that some other ones might even comfort her
And after many more tears,
A coconut ice cream,
Some comfort food with a comfort show,
And a warm embrace,
Fred finally held her hand
And maybe,
She hated him a bit less
By the end
My friend had hard time, I won't go into it because it's her business, but not pleasant stuff.