I know
My friend
I hurt you
My friend

I didn't mean to
I'll do anything
For you stay my friend
But I understand if you don't want to be my friend

I'm a red flag
So thanks for being my friend
What a red flag
But you're still my friend

I know I'm a red flag
But don't leave me my friend
Definitely a red flag
But still don't leave me my friend

Maybe I have some green flags
But I'm mostly a red fkag
Despite that
Can you still be a friend

I'm a red flag
Abandonment issues
What a red flag
I am just a big red flag

Quite red flag
So insecure
Crazily insecure
What I read flag

I guess I'm pretty empathetic
And smart
So some green flags
But at the end of the day I'm mainly a red flag

I'm sometimes accidentally a little manipulative
What a red flag
I try to stop accidentally manipulating
But I'm a red flag

Barely any social skills
What a red flag
Can't understand most of my peers
What a red flag

I can't grasp the minds of a lot of people my age
Quite a red flag
I can't figure them out
Quite a red flag

Can't focus
Can barely do my work
My ADHD I think
What a red flag

Worry that their not my friends
Cause of the tiniest things
Such a red flag
Yes a red flag

It's like I can't help it
I'm a red flag
But please don't leave me
Even though I'm a red flag

I can understand if you leave me
I'm a red flag
But please don't leave
Despite the fact I'm a red flag

Hi, American here
I need to get things off my chest
Cause ever since Trump's been elected
I feel like I can never truly rest

Cry for help?
Maybe
That's for you to decide
Cause those of you not here you might want some inside

Sure almost all of us love 4th of July
Telling you otherwise would not be a lie
But we're not celebrating a ****** president
Cause their only one in the present

No we're celebrating
Freedoms in our country
And because past Americans fought
To stop being a British colony

It is celebrating a victory
And I promise you
There were other reasons besides taxes on tea
It;s a fun celebration for the whole family

And it's not like that we always back up our country
It done and still does bad stuff like other countries
And yes I think it's awful
No need to worry

But this was just pet peeves
And it's not like we're close to perfect
Or the stereotypes is all any of you believe
So let me get to the actually reason for writing

We are lowest on the happiness index of all developed countries
Been plummeting since 2012
Hooray
Yepe!

And you know what the sugar on the cream
Scratch that it's worst than that actually
Cause the lovely carrot Donald Trump
Is in office again

I'm scared of what is gonna happen
Who knows if he really joking when he say things like he
Plans to annex Canada
And even though it's probably a joke who jokes about that

He and his supporters are kinda crazy
They accused the elections of being rigged
And stormed the Capitol
After the 2020 election he didn't win

And if you think Kamala or Biden
You're wrong
But let's be honest
Donald Trump is a crazy man

He thinks looking like a carrot with cover up wrinkles
I can't believe his fans seem to worship the ground he walks in
"I'll make America great again"
Just lies, trust me

I'm scared he make America as we know it tear apart by the seams
It's really not fun
Living this country
Especially who now the president

I hope Trump gets impeached
Like so many Americans
Please
Help me

Hi
Hello
Nice to see you again
Virtual love

To you my friends
Hi
Hello
Nice to see you again

This poem came to me randomly
Just today
So it might
Might not be the best

But hi
Hello
Nice to see you again
Thank you

For all the love
My friends
It's been almost a week
Since I wrote here so

Hi
Hello
Hello my friends
Nice to see you again

I know my poems are confusing
But I don't care
Cause this all comes from my heart
And no one else seems to care

Hi
Hello
Nice to see you again
I know sometimes my poems are written like songs

I know
My friends
But hi
Hello

Hello my friends
I'm not ok
But hey
At least my friends

I don't plan to
You know
**** myself
Don't worry my friends

This ain't a suicide note
But hi
Hello
Hello my friends

Hi
It's nice
To see you again
Greetings my friends

Yeah hi
Hello
Nice to see you again
Hi my friends

I consider you my friends
Thanks for the love
The love it's nice to see you again

Hi
Hello
Nice to see you my friends
Stopping by to say

Hi
To you
To you my friends
Thanks for all the love it's nice to see you again

Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut

Cut Cut
Cut Cut
Cut Cut Cut
Bleed

Cut
Cut
Cut
BLEED

Cut Cut Cut Cut
BLEED
BLEED
BLEED

BLEED
It's been a while since I've done it
But I want to do it
Do it again

Cut my arms
Cut my arms
Cut them
Cut them until they

BLEED
BLEED
Cut cut cut till they
BLEED

BLEED
Cut cut cut
Cut cut cut cut
Cut

BLEED
BLEED
BLEED BLEED BLEED
BLEED BLEED BLEED

BLEED
BLEED
BLEEEEEEED
BLEEEEEEED

BLEE-E-E-E-E-E-E-EED
BL­EED
BLEED
BLEE-E-E-E-E-E-E-EED

BLEE
BLEE
BLEE
BLEE

BLEED
BLEED
­BLEED
BLEED

Cut cut
Cut cut
BLEEED
BLEEED

Dove, dove
Dove, dove
Please dove, dove
Please dove, dove

Dove, dove
Help me feel their love dove
Dove, Dove
Help me feel their love dove

Oh dove, dove
I know they love me dove
But dove, dove
Why can't I feel their love dove?

Dove, dove, I know that I'm loved
Please dove, dove
Let me feel some of their love dove
Dove, dove

Dove, dove
Help me feel their love dove
Please dove, dove
Please dove, dove

Dove, dove
I love them all back dove
So dove, dove
Let me feel my love dove

...
....
.....
......

Please dove
Dove, dove...
Please let me feel their love
Dove, dove...

Dove, dove...
Help me feel a bit of their love...
Dove, dove...
Can you help feel at least some of their love?...

They see a sturdy foundation
Maybe some chips
But still standing
Standing strong

They don't see
The cracks
The growing cracks
They don't see the stone is cracking

Cracking like eggshells
The stone is cracking
Holding on for now
But the Stone is cracking

You can't see
How the stone is cracking
Can't feel the foundation wobbling and crumbling
Can't feel it shaking

They can't hear the
Crack crack crack
Crack crack crack
They can't hear the stone going crack crack crack

They don't realize
But the stone is cracking
The stone is cracking
The stone is cracking, cracking

One day it'll be clear
That the stone is cracking
They'll be aware
That the stone is cracking

When they feel the shifts
And see the crumbling
When it's finally on display
That the stone is cracking

The stone is cracking
The stone is cracking
It's cracking
It's cracking

Crack
Crack crack crack
Crack crack crack
Crack crack crack crack

The stone
The stone
It's cracking
Cracking

One day it'll fall
Fall apart
Crack crack crack
The stone is cracking

Picture, picture
He says it nothing but a picture, picture
Picture, picture
Nothing more than a picture

I see the picture, picture
Cry when I see the picture
Scream in agony
Because of the picture, picture

He says picture, picture
It's just a picture
Why am I acting like this about a
Picture, picture?

Picture, picture
You think it's just a picture
You can't feel the pain and crying in the
Picture, picture?

He says no
It's not deeper than the picture, picture
There's no darkside of the
Picture, picture

He can't see the deeper meaning in the picture, picture
Can't see the cry for help in the picture, picture
He wonders why I'm reacting like this to the picture, picture
Picture, picture

...picture...picture
..picture..picture
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picture, picture
picture picture
PICTURE PICTURE
PICTUREPICTURE
PICTUREPICTUREPICTURE
PICTUREPICTUREPICTUR­EPICTUREPICTUREPICTUREPICTURE-

Follow me
They say
Have faith
And follow me

Ignore those who tell you to stop
They aren't trustworthy
Follow me
Don't worry about the darkness

Who needs light
They say
Those who try to stop you from coming with me
Just don't want you to be better than them

Ignore nature
They say
It tells you to be uneasy
But it is wrong

Ignore the screams they say
They're aren't important
Don't stop to listen
Don't worry about it

The darkness is loving
They say
Unlike what others and nature tell you
It's kind and caring

Dear reader
Have they called you out
Said people like me were wrong
Said we just don't want you to be better?

They speak lies
They're trying to trick you
They want to pull you in
Into their trap

Have you followed them?
Then it's too late
You're in too deep
You can't untangle from the darkness

You haven't?
But you think I'm lying?
You're going to follow them?
NO DON'-

You say you care
Care about me
I'm your friend
I'm important

So I cared for you
Asked what's wrong when you were sad
Gave you a shoulder to cry on
Comforted you

But you
Never acted on your words
Never acted like I mattered
It was like I meant nothing to you

But you
You didn't ask what was wrong when I was sad
Did you even notice
Did even pay attention to my feelings

When I cried
It was annoying
It was stupid
You told me to shut up

You never comforted me
My sadness was annoying
And I was being a nuisance
Nothing more

I forgave your mistakes
Convinced myself to give you a second chance
Convinced myself to move on the moment you apologized
To pretend like nothing happened

But the tiniest mistake
The tiniest imperfection
Was taken so seriously
How dare I mess up or be imperfect

You said that it could make you hate me
Not be friends with you anymore
So I apologized
Begged for forgiveness

And maybe just maybe you forgave me
Or were less mad
I strived to do better
To not "hurt" you again

You convinced me I was annoying
That I was mean
That what you were saying and doing was ok
That I was terrible

But they
Unlike you
Who only pretended that I mattered to you
I am truly important to them

They care
They ask what's wrong when I'm sad
Give me a shoulder to cry on
Comfort me

They don't hate me for the tiniest things
They accept my apology
Forgive me
Tell me it's ok

They don't convince me
That I should be treated terribly
That I'm evil
Or that I'm worthless

You said you cared
But you never did
But when they say they care
They truly mean it

I'm not normal
I don't say this because I'm a pick me
There's tons of evidnece
~That I'm a freak of nature~

Sometimes I can't focus
Can't focus at all
Not even to save my life
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

I can't do it because of those it would would
But sometimes
I want to die, commit suicide
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Not supposed to be human
Supposed to have black fur and paws
Supposed to be a cat
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

I feel so alone
Even when I know that people love me
And my loved ones surround me
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

I'll get depressed for no reason
Nothing matters
Gloomy clouds surround me
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Almost always crying
But with no tears
Only on the inside no matter how much I want to actually cry
~Cause I'm freak of nature~

Can't understand the normals
Even people my age
They often confuse me
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Get anxious for the smallest things
Have a panic attack
Freeze up for up to hours if I don't get help
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Abandonment Issues
Say sorry for everything
Cling on to them all so I won't lose them
~Cause I'm freak of nature~

No matter what
All the hugs and love
It's never enough
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Obsess over everything
From tiny imperfections
To fandoms
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

I might be insane
Scratch that I'm definitely a little insane
Why?
~Cause I'm a freak of nature~

Anxiety
It can be sudden
And can not make sense
But that doesn't change what it is

Everything is caving around you
Something terrible is going to happen
You might not know why you feel this way
Like the world is going to end

You may shake
Breathe hysterically
Cry
Or even freeze

When will it end?
Please universe
Stop this panic attack
You want to yell

Can you tell anyone
Do they know what's going on
Because you need help
HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HEL-

People love me
I know they do
So why do I feel so alone
Why does everything feel gloomy

Why do I long a hug so bad
Even when I'm hugged
Why do I long to be loved so bad
Even when I'm loved

Why can't I feel
I swear on my life it's there
So why
Why is it like this
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
*ERROR

Come with me
Those who aren't supposed to be human
Those who belong in the forest
Those who should have paws

Run with me
Run with all fours
Here in the forest
Surrounded only by animals and plants

Let yourself
If only for a few seconds
Feel free
Feel your body is correct

Feel like you aren't trapped as a human
But are truly free
Be the animal
As we run

Happily through the woods
No one there to laugh or point
Take in the sounds of nature
And take in your taste of freedom

Look, flowers dancing
Dancing along with the wind
Dancing together

I want to die
How I want to die, to **** myself
I want to fall for death's temptations
Let its comforting voice pull me in

But I won't do it
I can't do it
And you may wonder
The reason why

So many people care about
I can't break them like that
And so I will not make myself die
But I will partially hide my sadness

At least from my family
Who don't know that to them
I mostly lie

I wish I had a friend
To cry into the arms of
Who would hold me close

Reassure me
It's not my fault
But instead I go in my mind

And cry in the arms of my comfort characters
All while wishing
Hoping
I'll have a real person to do that

I should have the ears of a cat
The tail of the cat
But when I look they are not there

The universe took them from me
It looks at my ears and tail
Then brutally chopped them off

Sometimes I can almost feel
My tail swishing
My ears poking up or pinning themselves down

But they aren't there
Just a mark of what was there before
Before the universe cut my ears and tail off

They see a person
Lazy, uncaring
Stuck inside their very own mind
But they don't see the daydreams

The worlds inside
The stories created
The lore filled universes
The characters made

All created with passion
Detailed
Alive
They don't see the wonders

They see the person
Doing nothing
Not the creations
Being made