I put my thoughts up on the wall, so you all can see my struggle, know that you are not alone, even when you're on your own. I can feel the pain inside you, i can see what's on your mind.

Sometimes life does not seem fair but know nothings guaranteed. You spill your heart out hoping, that someone will receive, all the love inside of you, and return it as you give. But love is not as easy to find as its to give. Be a gift to the world and have love unlimited.

We all have our struggles and our hopes and aspirations. You are not alone in any of these endeavors. Just keep your course and stay true without a hint of hesitation. I promise you youll pull through, this life will soon get better.

Hanging on by a thread, my mind is a mess, killing brain cells just to rest, life is all a test. Reflections and memories of life lived so far, the mistakes that Ive made left me covered in scars. My life is a battle, sometimes things get hard. I will never give up ill fight through the dark.

I've felt peoples faces becoming my own, i quickly retreated becoming more cold. Don't ask where I went to it wouldn't make sense, the places I crawl to are deep and depressed. Its hard to explain I am not like the rest.

I hope that your listening, to these words that Im stringing, I write to inspire you, build a fire inside of you, so that one day you all can, spread that fire across the land. Teach inspire and educate. Make the world something great. A place where we all can get along, see the common ground we're standing on. Life is really not that long. Now i hope that you all liked my song.

Is love a feeling in your gut or is it something more? Is it pain and suffering to keep you wanting more? Will I feel like crying when you leave and slam the door?   Or will you tell me its ok and pick my heart up off the floor? Will we scream and hate each other after just one fight? Or will you always have my back until we leave this life? I just want to know right now is it worth the pain to try? Cause i find you very beautiful I could see you by my side. I wanna feel true love right now more than just the butterflies inside. Ive thought I found the one before and it turned out to be a lie. I owe it to myself to try at least just one more time. I don't want to leave this life with no one by my side.
So i will take a chance with you, and see where it takes me, I want a story that seems like make believe. Something more to life, I want to live my fantasy, with you by my side, this love I feel is crazy.

My stomachs feeling twisted and its flipping inside out. Either my heart is sinking low or its coming out my mouth. Hands are shaky feeling spacy dont know how I really feel. Im praying up to god that I see life to next year. This **** is getting old i think I must be going nuts. Its a sickness i cant get rid of I will have it til Im dust. I won't bother with specifics its too much ******* pain. In the end it doesn't matter we all leave our brains. I just hope that soon my life will find a better place. Either that or I just might leave the human race

Most people want to understand. On our path to understanding we like to think we understand. But no one searches to understand while thinking they understand. So we all must try to understand. Never stop pursuing understanding.

Would it be a bad thing to die alone?
Living your life coming home to an empty home. Quietly thinking what is wrong with your head. Inside and out knowing neither are great. Some say its karma I say its fate. Playing out scenes that only you make, hoping and wishing that you make the show. Implicitly Complacent show me the scars your insecurities left. Open your heart and show me what's left. I will cherish it up until death.

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Take the time to calm your mind and choose your next decision
Some will lead and some will follow make sure you know your place
The only one responsible is a reflection in the pond
What I do is all for me and I still call the shots
The many people that I know I care for very much
The mind is always mend-able until it turns to dust
The best advice a man can give is not to give advice
Let the people find themselves let the people fight
Things always escalate with emotions in the way
But take them out and find a life in black and white and gray
Felling mad or sad or good they're feelings all the same
Just another part of life that no one can explain
Trust your gut emotions, you've had them since day one.
Don't take life so serious lets just have some fun.

You can say too much sometimes, sometimes not enough.

Ask me some questions,
get into my head,
This human connection is what I am lacking.

I want to be known and know you as well.
Living alone is like living in hell.

Theres got to be someone to shoot the **** with, a person to talk to just someone to click with.
I know I sound selfish to use you for this. But you can use me I promise I
don't hit. Nothing I do is ever to hurt you, I dont even know you but i can tell you that's true.

Memories of the times we had. Ill have to admit it wasn't all bad. In the end you stabbed me in the heart prolly planned to from the start  now my soul it must embark on the climb out from the dark. Even though our page is gone another chapters' coming along. Ill stay strong it won't be long. Another day.

As the world turns round i stand here still. Waiting, thinking , wondering. I wonder what life will bring in the coming years. I have many hopes and I have many fears. I try not to succumb to the thoughts flooding in, they tell me im worthless, they remind me of sins. I push all that aside and try focusing forward. if i have learned anything its that nothing is certain. At any one moment god could pull the big curtain. I try looking ahead but my vision is blocked. The worry sets in I when i notice the clock. Time isn't waiting for any of you. Get off of your ***** start making some moves. Start getting prepared to be living alone. Nothing is certain and time makes us old.

I can't give you my heart its all guarded up tight. I won't deal with the screaming the yelling the fighting, I can't give you my heart but i can give you my love, I know its confusing but that's how i run. Its not worth it to fall for me I promise you that. Ill just break your sweet heart and leave you like that. Ill help you
out as much as I humanly can, I know its cliche but Im only one man.

Im not the same person I was yesterday.  I just keep on changing day after day. Some days I'll be happy just to see the sun rise, on bad days those beauties never come to my mind. Im living in madness my mind as a cage. I'm learning to bend it, I'm changing the pages. But one day I'll run out and they'll be digging up my grave.

The time keeps on ticking, the cage grows much smaller. The walls are pressing in on my medualla oblengata.  I try to escape it, I thought that I made it. I realize Im stuck here, I can't push much further. Once I see through it there is nothing to it. Its all an illusion, a self built institution. Its your life so own it, repair it and mold it. See through all the madness, cut out all the bad fruits..

Your smile imprinited in my mind.
The way you move, and bat your eyes.
Id call it love but I've learned a lot.
I know what's real and i know what's not.
Something about you pulls me in.
It has me asking what is this?
It doesnt happen all too often that
I don't know why my heart is pumping.
I feel between us energy.
It's not something that you can see.
I feel it growing more and more.
Its shocking what you do to me.
My hearts leaping out on to the floor.
I know by now to not give in
My love is guarded secretly.
I can't begin to speak my feelings
They are tangled up inside of me.
I hope you want to know me more.
My heart and mind are growing sore.
I cant pretend and play much longer.
Hopefully you make me stronger.
Maybe this is real. Maybe this will **** me.

Time keeps passing by,
Someday soon ill die,
Might as well get high,
Live this life and die.

We are getting all this stuff,
That we can not bring with us,
Living for the wealth and lust,
Someday soon we'll all be dust.

It doesn't matter, where you're from,
We're all children, under the sun,
When Death comes, you cannot run,
Try not to worry, have some fun.

Seconds, minutes, hours, days
All these words are human made
What does life mean anyways?
No ones written the last page.

Im searching for a reason why,
I tilt my head up to the sky
Tears run slowly down my cheeks
I fall down onto my knees.

I beg and plead to empty space.
How did I get to this place?
It's dark and cold inside my mind.
But deep inside a flame resides.

The light that guides me has grown dim
Every day I live in sin
Im trying now to make things better
Where to start, its all a battle.

Im lost and scared, I dont know why
Now I'm screaming to the sky.
Is it my fault how people treat me
For no reason when they first meet me
Im trapped inside my mortal tomb
Ever since Ive left the womb.

I used to cry for moms attention
Now these tears just cause desention
Im falling down and staying there.
It's all my fault for being here.

I want something to spark my soul.
Make me forget that I'm old.
Keep my mind preoccupied
I need to find those sunny skies.

I know what's needed to get better
It wont be easy there will be pain
I need to see it to the end.