Im not the best poet and trust me I know it, but I won't let that stop me from trying. I try to find words to express what ive learned so that you may find something within them. I don't know if Im right with all my insight, but I won't let that stop me from trying.

Holding on for something real, i wont fall for that devils deal, ive been down that road before. Before i jump into the dark im making sure i wont get hurt and ive got my light shining brighter than its ever been. That old man told me i might feel lonely but not to worry cause time will mold me to be a better man. So i close my eyes look to the skies and pray it wasnt just a lie, i can do this i say. Just another day. It all seem odd these wheels and cogs keep ticking on until im gone i feel my days are fading fast i have to make these moments last. And even as i slip away ill know whats right ill know whats wrong and still im trying to be strong living with this weight inside my mind. Waiting for the rain to wash away all of these poisnous thoughts these feelings of uncertanity the feeling insecurity. Only i can fix it all, i must try and if i fall ill learn to walk right up again holding on nobodys hand.

Love can hurt you, but it can feel so good at the same time. But when it ends, or someone you love hurts you, it hurts a thousand time worse than if someone else you don't really love said or did the same thing. We give that power to people over us. We surrender ourselves and make ourselves vulnerable only because we expect the person we are surrendering to will not ever hurt us . Those feelings have roots that run deep inside of the fabric of who we are. Sometimes the roots will take hold, and when the other person waters them, and cares for them, it turns to the most beautuful thing you could ever imagine. But when its neglected, and abused, the same thing that was beautiful is now poisoned, and like I said the roots run deep. You can feel like a completely different person when you're with someone. Just more confident and happy. But the same person can make us feel so horrible about ourselves. Why do we give this power over our emotions to people? Is it because we feel like we have that same power over them?

There's a turning point in every story. Things will come around. The forks we come to give us choice, to find our own way home. One ways always easy the other hard. Which path seems more rewarding? The struggle builds true character, it makes you more aware. Calm smooth seas don't make good captains, the storms will make or break you. Dont wait for someone to help you. Walk the path alone a while and see where you end up. Its not as bad as you might think, you learn to have self love.

Life is crazy . It never stops being crazy. **** just goes and goes and doesn't stop no matter what you do. It never ceases to amaze me. Every day it seems something comes along where I feel like I'm helping someone some way. Either that or I have a chance to and turn it down.. I dont know. I don't know why I'm alive. Im trying to find a purpose for my life. Use my skills I learn in life to help people is about all I can think for what a good purpose would be. I don't care about doing things for myself. I've realized Im going to die some day no matter what I do. Its not very difficult to sustain my own life. Why live life for me if no matter what I do I die in the end? Why not help other people while I can? Everyone knows something you don't, and you know something someone else doesn't know. Life is never a solo journey unless you conife yourself to want it to be that way. There are billions of people around you, with lives just as complex as yours. Nothing stops for you. It just keeps going. No matter what you do. I just want to find my place in life im tired of feeling lost.

We are all lost
Thats the way I feel
Giving and taking with no know costs
Thats the way I feel
Taking things we never own
Thats the way I feel
Life will one day disappear
Thats the way it is.

Take a step towards the edge. Feel your heart, drop. Lean over the ledge, take a second, stop. Breathe one last breath before you take flight. Soar through the air, fly into the night. Darkness consumes if you don't put up a fight. Just pull the rip cord and youll be alright.