Falling in and out of love will leave you empty and alone. The touch of a new lover will be your only goal. The things that could once make you smile, will send shivers down your spine. The memories of a long lost love imprinted in your mind. You cant connect the same way those feelings forever left behind. Its hard to repair the damage a broken heart can create.

Theres times when I feel tiny in this great big massive world. Its times like these i wonder if you all will hear my words. Or am i writing nonsense just to ease my mind. These are the things I think about all the ******* time. It doesnt matter much to me to matter much at all. But sometimes I will wonder if my voice is heard at all. Am I screaming into darkness not an echo to be heard? Or is there someone listening who needs it in their world. I guess ill never know for sure what impact i may have. People might not read these words until after I am dead.

You asked me if i was lonely, depends on what you really mean. There are times when i feel sadness, when youre not here  with me. When we spend our time together you make me feel so warm and alive, my soul has found just what it craves, when I look into your eyes. I know youd never hurt me on purpose or for fun. I guess that this is what they meant when they said id find true love.

Every day when i wake up, I am thinking bout what i can do, things to make you happy, just to be sure youre pulling through. When I see you feeling empty, inside I feel the same. I don't know how to explain this, but I truly feel your pain. It matters that your happy, for my own mind to feel fine. I know that its not fair, but I depend on your smile. Without it I feel empty, dark and cold you hold my fire. I hope you understand, that i loved you sweetie pie.

Honey id die to love you, I miss the way you held my hand, how you said that i would always forever be your man.  Now all of it feels so empty. What ever happend to our plan? I can't help it but to think that all of its a sham, now its gone, all along, with every other thing related to you, who would think that id ever say, that it would be better off this way, maybe there will come a day, where I wont be missing you.

The days seem cold and lonely, now that you have gone. I wish that i had maybe tried, to stop before you were gone. But i was kinda selfish, took our love for granted babe. Now all that I have left of you, is the memories that we made

Is love a feeling in your gut or is it something more? Is it pain and suffering to keep you wanting more? Will I feel like crying when you leave and slam the door?   Or will you tell me its ok and pick my heart up off the floor? Will we scream and hate each other after just one fight? Or will you always have my back until we leave this life? I just want to know right now is it worth the pain to try? Cause i find you very beautiful I could see you by my side. I wanna feel true love right now more than just the butterflies inside. Ive thought I found the one before and it turned out to be a lie. I owe it to myself to try at least just one more time. I don't want to leave this life with no one by my side.
So i will take a chance with you, and see where it takes me, I want a story that seems like make believe. Something more to life, I want to live my fantasy, with you by my side, this love I feel is crazy.