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Matt Jun 2015
I went on a walk
Last night around 10

So calm, so serene

I listened to the monks
As I walked

I'm not sure why I have an akward shoulder
But its okay

I'm not rich
Not many friends

But I am content

I saw a young woman practicing her dancing
Inside the large home

I make my way up a dead end street
The mountains loom massive
In the background
I am a mountain dweller

Two people in the distance
The lights of their phones visible

And on the way back
A family on their back porch
Enjoying ice cream

I had gone to my favorite spot on the trail
Earlier in the day

I had observed the birds

This nation is in trouble
In deep trouble
Matt Jan 2016
Have you ever known
Someone so lazy and dumb?

They did nothing
Their whole life
And called it fun

People like this
Deserve to suffer

And when they do
I won't care

They deserve it
Matt Mar 2016
I'm here to tell you
That there is
Really nothing

On this planet
To get excited about

Friends are fun
Nature is beautiful

But it's kind of
One big empty place

And people say this
And that

And here comes
Another day

Am I doing okay?

I spent alot of time alone
And I write these poems

I'm on my own schedule
Head in the clouds

And now I'm watching
Old Bond movies

Why?
Not sure why

Questions are usually
Followed by more questions

I would like
To go to Tibet
But I'm so poor

So I'll spend
In the local mountains

I'm not looking
For a full time job

Part time
Suits me fine

And I'm not moving out
I'll be here
Until society collapses
Or the end of days

Or until I'm old
Whichever of those three
Comes first

Oh you know
Life is some type of joke
Matt Jul 2015
A lazy person
Wastes her life
In front of the television

At the store
No matter what she did
It was never important

A lazy
Stupid person

That did not contribute
To society

I have to live
With this idiot

You are such
An idiot

Turn off the news!
Matt Dec 2015
Why are some people
Attractive and some
So ugly

I guess it is
A type of joke
The creator played?

To leave me alone
On this planet

Alone and ugly

You would think
He could have created
Something better
Than this

Some better experience
The whole thing
Is kind of ****** really

My body is ugly

Leave me alone
I don't want
To meet

Any kind
Or attractive people

Leave me alone

I'll dig a hole in the ground
And live there

Leave me alone

I don't want to be hugged
I don't want a friend

Leave me alone
Matt Apr 2015
You leave me alone
Alone Alone Alone!!!!!

Don't threaten me
I'll strike like the cobra

Descend on you
Like the Hawk

Pounce like a fierce lion
Snap my jaws like the crocodile

Float like a butterfly
Sting like a bee
Don't you ever threaten me!
Matt Jul 2015
gym
eat sleep
golf

repeat
repeat
repeat

haha

really great

It's like a computer

LEAVE ME ALONE

LEAVE ME ALONE

I spent so much time alone

I don't care

I just like to walk around streets
Matt Jul 2016
Why oh why
Why are you opening
My door

Peeking into
My room

And what for?

Do it again
They you'll see
Pure wrath

And experience misery

Rooms are priavte
Don't open them
It's called privacy.  Do it again, and I'll smash your skull open.
Matt Oct 2014
Nothing to cling to
Nothing to grasp

One time to next time
And this time to that time

Best to be like the stoics
Know thyself

Do not concern yourself with things beyond your control
Do your duty to society

Go to work
And have fun with leisure activities

What is all the fuss about with this anyway
Stop creating drama human beings

Sun goes up
Sun goes down

Go here go there
I like to eat lemon
And chicken wrap

I like to write poetry
Tao is wise mother
Matt Jan 2015
This Time
To That time
These feelings
To those feelings
What the?????

Man this life
What is it anyway?
Nothing to hold on to

Just love
I'm just trying to show love
Like Jesus did

Not many people in my life though
I spend too much time alone

Everything is good
I got my crucifix necklace
The Crucifix I keep in my pocket
Divine Protection
Matt Jun 2015
American citizens now living in debt slavery
This country is now not what it was
Or what it was meant to be

Let judgement come to America
Our government is guilty and corrupt

This country will be taken over
By other nations fairly soon

May God be with the loving Americans
May He be with his people

Living in this corrupt land
Matt Nov 2015
I'm fit
I'm loving and kind

I enjoy philosophy
And history

Please
O woman
Come to my side

And let us hug
One another

If I become aroused
Just think of it
As in involuntary response

I do not plan to act
On my arousal

We are friends and friends only
Although I cannot help
But become aroused
Matt Nov 2015
Let the times
Pass through

That's all one can do
1 p.m
It will turn to 2
And then 3, and then 4

Life can sometimes
Be a bore

Looks like
I will be going to
Bed alone again

At least I have my pillow
I said with a grin

And thankful to
Have food too

When food runs out
There will be nothing
We can do

Except meditate
Underneath
The shade of tree

Until the hunger overcomes me
WIth no food
The body dies

I enjoy looking
Up at the sky
Matt Jan 2015
Oh how vain we can be
Men and women
Concerned with our looks
Our finances

Soma Sema
The body is a tomb

Show more concern for others
Than for yourself
In giving you will receive
Matt May 2015
Organizing books
Answering calls about the availability of books

This is the role of the librarian

I am watching them in action now

Looks like a fun position to have

I don't have a position

I just wander from place to place
Matt Sep 2014
So here I am at my old college library
Charging my Ipad
I was taking pictures of pages
In different religious
And philosophical books
I like to make audio files
With my microphone
They can be added to Itunes
Then placed on my iPod nano

Alone at the library
It was always the case
Now and from 2005 to 2008
Didn't make any friends in college
Just acquaintances

Sure would be nice
To meet someone today
Someone to ask how I am
I'd like to inquire how their studying was going

I wish I had more friends
Seems I am always alone
Oh well, at least I have the great minds
To listen to
And the consolation of philosophy

So I'll wait for my ipad to charge
And check out the beautiful women
As they walk by the window
Just as I did some six years ago

And I'm still broke
Can't seem to start my career

Sometimes I think
I'd just like to spend
The rest of my life
Studying here

All these hot babes
But they always ignore me
Oh well
At least I have philosophy and golf

It is a shame
I'd be such a loving boyfriend
And put her needs before mine
I hope to find a girlfriend one day
Matt Jun 2016
Why can't I just
Go along with the system?

Why can't I just "be happy"

Why am I so poor?

Why do I insist on working
A 20 hour work week at most

Why am I lazy?

Why do I drive around just
To people watch?

Why do I ******* in my room?

Why is life
A lonely
And miserable affair?

Why did my therapist
Who I enjoyed talking to
Leave me?

Why do I look the way I do?

Why have I listened to thousands
And thousands of hours
Of documentaries
And podcasts?

Why does America
Keep ******* things up
Across the globe?

America didn't do
Anything When Sadaam
Was using it's chemical weapons
Against our enemy Iran
In the Iran-Iraq war

And I'm always
Out of position

The librarian puts
The books
On the shelves
And answers the phone

I sit here and type
And make nothing

And why have I chosen
The life I lead?

I just have
I just have!

And I want to hug someone
To love someone

But no one
No one is there

And everyone is on
Their phone
And nobody cares

And this country
Is hated by millions
Across the globe

And I wanted to travel
So many places

To Kashmir
To see beautiful faces

Where a war is fought over land

I used to use my left
Now I use my right hand

To correct the slight body
Imbalance you see

Self pleasure is not
Good for me

North Korea
Prepares it's nukes

What are they for?
To destroy our nation
And settle the score

And the world is not stable
And I am not able

Not able to make
One female friend

And I told the therapist
This is what I wanted
Again, and again

But it's a world
That doesn't care

No constellation prize
No "there there"

Just desperate
Hungry glares

And my family
Is not at all prepared

To face what may come
I'm afraid it may not
Be much fun

I love you ladies
Wherever you are
Whether near or far

Heavenly ladies
Provide caring hugs
All I would like
Is just to feel loved

By another human being

Caring women
In my eternal dreams
Matt Jan 2017
Don't be too kind
Too loving

You'll be thought of
As weak

The small waves
Wear away the stone
Over time

The westerner
Misunderstands time
The nature of life

He must be constantly "doing"

His health depreciates
Because of the love of money

The world is an empty
Open space

Like a woman
It is nourishes all things

It lies low
In silence

It's okay
To be kind
And gentle

We are here to lose
You and I

Here to lose the game of life

I am here
Then I am there

I like living alone
And I don't care

I won't work
Won't work at all

There was a drone
Flying in the sky
In the park
On that day

I don't really have
Much to say

Except
It's repeating again
The cycles are repeating again

I live in a program
I cannot win

I'm poor
Alone
I don't care

This place is not
At all fair

I'm sick of those people
Go away

I don't want to see them
Not today
Matt May 2016
A different time
A different place
A different name
A different space

But it all seems
So similar indeed

Listen closely
To my words
Take heed

I'm waiting for
Something real
Waiting to love
And to feel

I've shown kindness
To others
This seems true

I don't know
To do with the time
Do you?

Went to the library
And to the gym

Is the planet
A computer simulation
A type of game
But I'm not trying to win

And I will only work
One or two days at most

I'm not here to brag
Or to boast

Everyone talks about ***
All the time
But I don't really need it
I feel fine

Being a man is boring indeed
One or two *******
Expelled forth
With great speed

Women can ***
Again and again
They play with
Their vibrators
It is no sin

And I'm searching
For something real
And I'm trying to feel

Is it all a dream
A dream?

And I have been here before
This time and this place

The same librarian
With the same face

And the clock ticking
On the wall

Everything would be fine
It if wasn't for Adam's fall

Picked up my new glasses
I ordered two days ago

And when the rain freezes
It becomes snow

And when the snow falls
That is winter time

And sometimes at night
I have a sip of wine

And what is the self
And who am I?

Should I go on a hike
Should I stop asking why?

The world is so big
And I am so small

I look forward
To an accounting
Of us all

Trump or Clinton
Who cares who wins
America's prosperity
Wearing thin

I got new glasses
But forgot to order
The transition lens

Life feels like
I am counting down
From a trillion by tens

Why this burden
Why such misery
Fields of gold
That song by Sting
Sounds good to me

Would like a female friend
Someone to hold

Life a piece of stale bread
Life kind of grows old

Still the variety
Makes it often fun

Try to stay out of
The hot sun
Matt Dec 2016
I drove slowly
And I saw the woman
Exchange friendly words
With the mailman

I saw a family and their children
Walking along

I saw the blind man walking
Up the street
I was reminded of
The lyrics of "Amazing Grace"

It's hard
These days
For suburban Americans

In some ways
I have very little contact
With other people

I'm at the library again.

I saw the same man
Two days in a row
At the gas station
And driving in his car

I saw my brand of car cover today

I saw tall men today
Looked like mountain men
With beards

I saw the sun set

But I didn't look into eyes
That loved and cherished me

I just prayed

I saw a car whip around
Passing a car
In the opposing lane
Dangerous driving
Could have been the end
For that person

Slowly Slowly
Do things slowly

Keep your eyes
Wide open all the time

Hello to all the dreamers
Out there
I wish I could spend time
With you

I wish I wasn't separated
From you
By physical distance

Hello from The library
Matt Oct 2014
Life is painful
Life is long
And terrible
When you are alone
Matt May 2015
So how's life?
You may ask

A lesser man would drown his sorrows in a flask

But instead I'm off the gym
Once again

My dreams dashed upon the rocks
In my room
Stroking my hard c*
To women on a computer screen

Welcome to my American dream!

Independence and my own life?

Sometimes it seems there is only strife

Still I must go on

Please someone read my sad song!

Half-heartedly searching for jobs
I will not attain
Being so poor is such a pain

I'm not attractive
Nor rich

I asked a dominant woman to call me her *****

I did it because it helped me ***
****** pleasures are only temporarily fun
Matt Dec 2014
Ulttimately it seems as though
I am swept away by life

Changing dates and changing faces
Changing names and places

There Is A Good Path For Me
That I can see

Eat well, exercise
Show love to others
Do my job
And do my duty

But ultimately this life is some kind of tragedy

I guess what bothers me the most is the loneliness
I wish I had more good friends

Ah well,
It's all fleeting
All passing
Best just to accept things the way they are

Only here for a time
Show love to others

I hope to meet my mistress one day
Where are you mistress?
Your loving and devoted servant is here
I would like to meet you one day

This evening I went for a drive
I bought a cigar
They had renovated the store
Seems change is the only constant

I have a friend who is always good
And has always been that way
He shows love to everyone
I try to emulate him
To be like him

I figure he is about as good as any human being can be
Matt Aug 2016
A series of
Mostly meaningless
Random and
Often disturbing events

That can be summed up
By the expression,
"That's Life."
Matt Apr 2015
Looking at ****
Not knowing what love is
Or what it would mean to be touched
By a woman who cares about me

What is this life?
The life of the mind is most rewarding
Chipping golf ***** or hiking

****** urges come and go like the wind
Matt Mar 2015
I wish I had a female friend
A sweet woman to talk to

I just see my therapist
But that is only once a week

There is golf
And more golf
And history
And philosophy
And youtube videos

And there are the endless hours
And years alone

There are no jobs
At least there is golf

I wish I could see my therapist more

The one person you really like
You can't be with
Kind of funny
In a way

Ah well
I don't suppose it matters
This is all just some automatic program
The creator wound it up like a clock
And let it run

Best not to expect to meet anyone
No new friends I'm sure
Just live alone
Matt Oct 2015
No one to hug
Or care for

No woman to hold

Living life alone
Gets quickly very old

Buying canned food
And protein bars

For an emergency

One day
Life will be very hard
This is plain to see
Matt Sep 2016
I drove by
An Episcopelian church today

My therapist was
Was an Episcopelian

Shame
I don't belong to
A church

Here I sit
I have returned
To the college
From which
I received
My degree

That was in 2008
And what has changed
In America
Since that time

America is now
In more economic trouble
America is now
More susceptible
To terrorist attacks
Than ever before

The sunset
Was beautiful
It had been quite some time
Since I had seen
The sunset

She teaches here
The one
Who must not
Be named

It wasn't a good idea
To become friends
Sure, her client
But I feel like
I became her friend

I hope she considers
Me her friend

I think she does

Well I write to you
And to her

Not much has changed
For me

They still call out
The order numbers
Just as they did
In this cafeteria
Some eight years ago

And it's hard
The isolation
The loneliness

It was important to me
Meeting once a week

She told me about hope
I have hope
She's a Christian
Like me

I remember
The build a bear
Lol

Those times
Are not lost to me
I remember
Her kindness
And her warmth

And that office

Where has the time gone
Where does it go

I am a stranger
In this world

Where have
The people gone Liz?

I am kind
I am loving
I am noble
I am honest
I am good

I have read
Many great thinkers

I have travelled the world
Through YouTube

I know many things

I cared about you

Well
I'm going to order now

Here I am
At my Alma mater

Some dream

It will not always be easy
My fellow Americans

One day life
Will become even
More difficult
Matt Mar 2016
I listened to a documentary
On Afghanistan
From 1979-1989

Many times
Afghan is spoken

Life is like
A foreign language

I do not understand it
Better to just listen
To it being spoken
And enjoy

Life is
A foreign language

Great fun
Matt May 2015
Worked out
Came home to eat

Should I walk back down
Back down to the gym?

My home away from home?

I'm tired of exercising
It gets boring at times
Although I do enjoy it

Not like there is any work
To be found

So the gym is my life
It is where I pass the days I guess

Alone and no friends
21st century is well
Lonely I guess at times
But I'm used to it I suppose

Walkin' back down to the gym
He is watching the baseball game
Same thing over and over
Never changes

Getting tired of this house
Matt Nov 2015
Please remember
The importance
Of food and water

Of soap
And toothpaste
Of floss

Of clothing

Peace will not last

I'm here to remind you
Things will get worse

And if you thought life
Was hard now

It will become more difficult
Matt Mar 2016
Nothing to do
Nothing to see

Who am i?
Woe is me

It's all the same
What a bore

Life seems
Not to have
Much meaning anymore

Sometimes i would just
Like to leave
This miserable earth

Live on another planet
Matt Nov 2016
Bubble Boy
Bubble boy

Life through a bubble
And isn't a joy

Laugh at me
Call me names

I don't care
It's all the same

My disconnected self
Is not good for my health
And for years

I've been trying
Been trying
To fix my body

But to you
I'm just the one
Who stares

The one who sits alone
Over there

America is dying
So it seems
No more American dreams

31 and living at home
I'll never have enough
Money to live alone

I see people
I hear voices
I live a life
Without choices

It's just an illusion
You see

This bubble is
Overwhelming me

I've seen all the sides of man
Been pleasuring myself
With my left hand

Hard to tell
The night
From the day

Bubble please
Go away

And he reaches inside himself
Inside the bubble
Push
Push my chest out

Shoulders and chest
Need to be aligned

"How you doing buddy?"
Oh just fine

That questioned
Was just asked behind me
But was not directed at me

I see and see and see.........
And what is the purpose
Of all this?

I'll bang this table
With my fist

This is my life inside the bubble
Matt Nov 2014
Life is an automatic process
It goes on automatically
I live in a simulated world

Changing times and changing faces
Changing dates and changing places
It's all the same to me

The emptiness remains the same

There is a woman
Who I love
In an ideal world
We would be together

Alas
She married a strong powerful man
An alpha male
A Jujitsu expert
With great ****** stamina

When he thrusts into her
I moan in my bed
The pathetic cries of the cuckold
He is ******* the woman of my dreams
Filling her with his seed

Well, It is not an ideal world
Things often do not go as planned

And when I am able
To become aroused enough
I am learning to love the taste
Of my own cream
Matt Mar 2016
I prefer the world
Of the chatroom

And so i am often there
Instead of at work

In the chatroom
I can be a ***** blonde

Or a powerful Arab man

This is my life in the chatrooms
Matt Oct 2014
I like the song
"Die Another Day"

The refrain goes
"We have to fight and crawl, to die another day"

This life is really something else
At least I have the consolation of philosophy

I feel like I do have free will to some extent
But most of it is predetermined
Like some kind of matrix program

Well
It's awfully hard being human
Just try my best to show love to others
Matt Mar 2016
The World
Is a program

An empty program

I am just
A thinking brain

I always feel the same

Life is lame
Matt Jul 2016
I met a woman
On the internet
Just the other day

I knew we would
Just be friends

And that is okay

She has a bf
And lives
Thousands of miles
Away

She said some
Sweet things to me

In the middle of the night
But it is better to
Pretend that
That never happened
Alright?

No female friend
Near me
And nobody cares

I'm alone on this planet
So there

All alone
Nobody cares
Matt Jul 2015
Did I have a "nice day"
She asked again

I told her
I don't know what
Nice means

It is a meaningless word
I just lied about what I did

And she said, "That's nice"

Truly, a person
Who never examines life

Truly, an obnoxious idiot

I'm 30, live at home,
Can't make any money,
And can't find a job

No, it's not nice

Idiot.
But if you had a brain
That would be clear
Already
Matt Mar 2016
I think life
Is a journey
A journey
And a joke

Repeating the same actions
The body decays

Its all so strange
In so many ways

I don't really love myself
So I guess no one
Will ever love me

It's a boring place
I sat under a tree
Matt Jul 2015
I live in a movie
Yes, that's it

And I'd like to play
A part in this movie
Or film

So I can learn more
About myself within

And so I got an education
So I could play

Just to learn there will likely be
No more jobs today
Matt Feb 2016
Life is infinite
And meaningless
Absurd

I prayed for a female friend
I spent alot of time in the gym
Never got the body I wanted

It could always be worse
I tell myself that

And one day
It will be worse

When society collapses
Matt Jan 2016
Flogged and whipped
And tied to a chair

My mistress is mean
And nobody cares

My body is ugly
Life's not fair

One day
It will all be over
And will be done

I'll just sit
Underneath
The hot summer sun

Look at them scream
And look at them run

Just relax
The end will be fun

Bombs dropping here
And there

The flashes are bright
Try not to stare

And as
The buddhist monk burns

I ate a pear


And I'm just a brain
Floating in space

And I ate my own ***
I enjoyed the taste

And whole biospheres
Are laid waste

The next world war
Will destroy the human race
Matt Aug 2015
Life the movie
See and see and see

Eat and eat some more

I want my **** job
I'm tired of being broke

I would like
To participate
In the movie

Instead of just sitting
In the theatre

So I can have some money
To play golf

What is this place anyway

Just some long movie
I suppose it won't matter soon

When China drops
The EMP

No more easy food
For you and me
Matt Nov 2015
Even as a child
I knew
What an incredibly
Dull and stupid place

Earth would be
Sitting by the gate

I enjoy doing pushups
Against a rock
And a stump

Simply let the times
Past through

Nothing much
Here to do

The food goes in
The food goes out

Everyone
Seems to scream and shout
"I am here, look at me!"

But I prefer
Just to be

To the gym
Then to the trail

Like a boat
I do sail

Upon the sea

You'll never know
How I am
Or what it is like
To be me
Matt Jun 2015
If people can’t see the writing on the wall by now, they’ll never wake up. A military does not transport tons (TONS) of concertina wire, out in the open-not caring if it is seen, unless it is going to be used for something SOON. This wire is used for two things. Keeping enemies out (used to form military wire obstacles), or keeping prisoners in. The cost for transport, manpower to ***** the wire and manufacturing far out way the cost for using the amount we are seeing transported for merely an exercise.
The U.S. military, and other U.S government agencies, are spending way too much time and money for training. Our country’s leaders are scared to death, they are preparing for something big. The speed at which everything is being conducted, prepositioning of assets/ assets relocated, signals to me that whatever has them scared-is just around the corner.
We have China building islands to preposition assets and conducting large scale exercises, and we have Russia in the Ukraine fighting against U.S. equipped and trained troops, and conducting unprecedented military exercise (largest in their country’s history). We have both China and Russia building their own banking systems (AIIB/BRICS) to conduct trade and invest money + they have developed their own money wiring swift system (CHIPS)-circumventing what has always been used.
The Middle Eastern GCC countries are now forming a stonger military alliance so they can efectively operate jointly militarily together in the future, and they have been disusing limiting military weapons contracts with the U.S. They plan to purchase more hardware from their European allies. Why, because the U.S. will no longer be reliable, that’s right, we’ll be too busy dealing with chaos in our own country + weapons manufacturing will come to a complete halt, and they know it.
I believe the 500 days of climate chaos spoken about by the French Foreign Minister, with John Kerry standing at his side, has everything to do with all this. When the real chaos begins: super storms, quakes and volcanos, the U.S will be at its weakest. Much of our military will be oversees, and if you are in the military, plan on being stuck overseas. All Emergency Response Assets: National Guard, FEMA, Red Cross, DHS and other agencies will be overwhelmed. And this is when the U.N will intervene, and all our enemies, from all corners of the earth, will begin their invasion.
The most disturbing part of all this: It has all been planned, we have all been sold out to the global government corporate enterprise. And in case anyone wants to know who is paving the way, who is in charge, who will light the way? All you have to do is tune into the Popes address to our U.S. Congress (first time in history) and his address to the U.N. a few days later - this coming September. He will be the calming voice, the voice of reason, who will begin the process of unifying everyone. If you are not concerned, you should start becoming concerned, because in order for this man’s message to have the correct impact: answers for despair, fear and desperation, things are going to have to be getting pretty bad.
And all this is the perfect example of: Order out of Chaos. This is your New World Order people. I’ll leave you with this, and let it sink in: In a Short Time, This Will Be a Long Time Ago.
SealMan…
Matt Dec 2015
I was having
A friendly conversation
With A Christian woman
From Michigan

Of course
She had to
Go to sleep

When I wanted
To chat

That's the closest I have been
To a woman in 7 years

Chatrooms

Because I can't meet
Women at bars
Or wherever

They want guys with money

I doubt I will
Ever find
My female companion

All my life
I've been
Looking for something

Something never comes
Always turns to nothing

Earth is beautiful
But cold

Song lyrics
Go through my head

Soon I will
Be alone in bed
Matt Jan 2015
His SSN provided on the death certificate
Is not registered in the Social Security Death Index

The autopsy is a fake
The weight and height did not match
Neither did the tattoos

Niccolo Machiavelli
Faked his death at 25
And returned at 43
To fool his enemies

Tupac turned 43 in 2014

Well I hope he is living in peace somewhere
Matt Oct 2015
You go to college
Then more school after that

You turn 30
And there is only part time employment

Wow, isn't this great
I can barely pay my bills

Maybe I'll have a small apartment of my own
One of these decades
Haha

I'm just sayin'
I'm not complaining
Happy to have food
And a roof over my head
LOL
Matt Jan 2015
LOL
Another day no job
What's the point
In trying anymore

Maybe I should go be a slave
At some cash register somewhere
Making minimum wage

Hahahah
With all my education
I have no money
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