I am not going to any office
I won't be spending the day at any job site

The old family property
Will be rented out soon
Maybe in a few years

Maybe one day
The apartment
Will be built for me

I say goodbye
To family
They mostly annoyed me

Except for my sister

It's not good to love people
Too much

People get sick
Things happen
They pass on

Life does not make sense
At all
It is not reasonable
Or rational

A woman that I like
Will not go on a date
With me
I will never know her

Maybe in the past
That would have made me
Somewhat sad
Not really anymore

This is 9:35 at Starbucks
September 2017
It looks like 9:35 in 2013

Everything is repeating
In a big cycle

There go the UPS trucks again
What will the next war be about

I am not part of any programs

I have spent nights in my car

I know a guy who has spent
His life as a slave
In an office

In an effort to gain more
Material goods

Once they start
They don't stop
Work that is

Not that there is anything
Wrong with work

Doing things that contribute
To the well-being of others, etc.

I decided that my work
Was not worth it
Because I was paid so little

Well the professional athletes
Are paid millions
To dribble the ball around...

America America Americea
Isn't it a great place?

All these flags
All the time
On cars
On houses

America the beautiful
America that can do no wrong
America the powerful
America that will never fail

Large empires
In the past have decayed
So will America

I don't really think much
Of this country

UWould have preferred to have been born
In some European country

That way I could have traveled in Europe
The Middle East, and Asia

But I was born here
And you can't change where you were born

You can't change
Who your parents were
You can't change the past

I like to be alone
I enjoy nature
And being alone in nature

There is a white kitty
Across the street

Last night I gave
A homeless man
Some food to eat

I am thankful to have
Shoes on my feet

And I don't want to get married
Just like to eat frozen berries

And I am almost out
So put some more money
In my account

So I can just do what I do

Drank a chocolate milk
Almond breeze
Peace be with you

I guess it's up to us

To decide
If we believe in a higher power

Some desire
A relationship with
A savior

Like myself
A person
And son of God
Savior

Who represents
An ideal
A principle

After a time
Many years
Of not getting
What the heart desires

I just become as content
As I can

My old therapist
Will not read this
Sadly

It's Friday
That was the day
That we met

That was the day
That she listened to me
That she showed me
That she did care some

That all ended
In April of 2015

She just celebrated
Her two year wedding anniversary

I remember her comments

Hello Liz
Now this poem just goes out
On the web

It was just one hour
Per week
That was all

Do you know
Many Americans
Don't really have good friends
Anymore...

I gave her a Wonder Woman card
Because she was like Wonder Woman
To me

Have you lived most
Of your life all alone
Like me?

I wonder if Liz
Ever thinks of me
Or prays for me

I wonder if she saw
The new Wonder Woman movie

I am alone
Like I knew I would be

With just my prayers
Well I'm not complaining
I'm grateful for the things I have

I hope she will
At least spare a thought for me
Every Friday

That is when we used to meet

Every day
Is a vacation

And no
I don't feel guilty

This is my life

I think about ***
All these beautiful women
I'll never know

I dream of them
Pleasuring themselves

I conjure up pornographic
Images is my mind
When I pleasure myself
And I feel just fine

I doubt I'll ever know a woman

I'm 32
I used to substitute teach
A 40 hour work week
Is what they preach

Hours spent online
Having ******
Conversations

People in chatrooms
And having cam to cam chats
Across the nation

It's a world of seeing
Of times and places
Various faces

All just passing through
Some go here
Others go there

It's all so bizarre
And not really fair

I have left the home
I have lived in since 1997

Slowly but surely
Climbing the stairway to heaven

Here comes that guy
The security guard
Walking Down the sidewalk
Next to the boulevard

I like documentaries
Podcasts too
I keep plastic bags in my car
In which to take a poo

Well this high fiber diet
Of mine keeps things moving
Right through

Twitch streams
What a dream

I really love
The internet it seems

At least I can make
A connection there

In a world
That is not fair

I don't have any plans

At the moment
I am eating frozen fruit
At a Starbucks

I am staying at an old
Family property

One of the workers
I met today
Told me about
An old hole
He had to fill
In the bathroom

My sister is
Being rude
And mean lately

Trying to guilt trip me
For not being grateful

She thinks she is important
Because she has money

One day
In my lifetime
America will be destroyed
And life here will continue
To decline

America
This wicked land
With its corrupt government

One day
My sister's
Paper dollars
Will be useless

There is a reason
Why other people chant
"Death to America"
Across the world

Wow
That woman
Who walked by
Had large *******
I want to squeeze them

But I can't

There are many things
I'd like to do with women
But I can't do them

Dear Lord I pray
Let their be ***** babes
In heaven

Let them be *******
With large supple *******!

Let them be friendly
And intelligent

And let their vaginas
Have sweet golden nectar

Well who knows
It's just a dream

I dream of more good friends

Oh gosh
Here comes another one
I'm really noticing
These hot women

My ***** grows in my pants
That's what happens at 32

***** women
With toned legs

That really was
A good Berry Medley mix

Let brotherly love continue
The church sign says

Love your neighbor as your own self

Why did she move that table?
Kind of odd
The world is full
Of strange happenings

Have a good day
Wherever you may be

There they go again
With their coffees
Or whatever they are drinking

Off to the job site
I like to people watch
At Starbucks

Any hour of the day really

You know there is usually
Some spilled beans
And maybe some *****
That has been poured out
Of my *** bottle

In the parking space
Where my car was just parked

I'm not really going anywhere
I'm not goal oriented

I like to watch
The ***** of women
Jiggle as they walk

Sometimes if I am sneaky enough
I can get a ******* picture
With my IPad

The birds keep hopping around

I have known such crass materialists
And how they slaved their life away
Make more, spend more
Now earn more to spend more
Everything costs
What a waste and a chore

Could have retired many years ago
But always had to spend more you know

Goodbye to my parents
Goodbye to that ******* house

I live out of my car
And at the old family property

I'm still waiting
For the new house
With my own guest house

Away from the bodies
Who have bothered me

Nadal won the French Open
Do you care?

I am the body sitting over there
Nobody talks to me
And life's not fair

Off to the gardens
To read a book

It's a beautiful world
Don't forget to look

I don't work
Yesterday I saw portraits
And impressionist paintings

From the 19th and 18th centuries

I'm at Starbucks today

It's all so strange

Maybe I'll go chip golf *****

Maybe I'll play golf
Tomorrow I'm getting
An oil change

I am 32 and single
And will most likely
Be single for a long time

What's the point
Of this place?

I give some food
Or water
To a random homeless person
When I can

I no longer live at home
But stop by to get food
And do laundry

How will the world end?

The terrorists are at it again

In the Fox interview the
Christian man said
Christians had been silent
Over recent terror attacks

The interviewer asked him
What should be done

He said something
About showing the love
Of Jesus in the world

Well that's great
But the terrorists won't stop

No matter what other
People say
Religious or not

How will the world end?

In a worldwide
Nuclear war?

Search your own heart

The body is weak
Life is fragile

I still have
The same dull frown

I will enjoy a hike perhaps
Or take notes
On "The Soviet Century"

I like to roleplay
In adult chats
As Gal Gadot

It is 6/5/2017

It all just blends in
Into one meaningless
Endless blob

32 years old
Watching a live gaming stream

Hours in a chat room
Alone, Alone

Off to the old property
To have a smoothie
And nap