The email served
As my official letter of resignation

They wished me all the best
In my endeavors.

I don't have any
I just want to go here
Go there

No goals
Or endeavors
I don't
******* care

1+1 does not equal 3
But it does on earth
So **** me

A rational mind
In an irrational world

A hurky jerky coaster
Can make you hurl

I live inside
A hologram

Matter is not
The reality

Consciousness
Is the true reality

The emptiness
Is overwhelming

This imbalance thing
Has bothered me
For quite a time

The old man reads the paper
Over there

Blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah

This planet
Does not make sense

I am not
Making a connection
With others

I have made a connection
With YouTube however

Thanks YouTube
For endless entertainment
Thank you to the creators

I don't know
What I would do
Without your site

Thank you
Thank you

Don't be too kind
Too loving

You'll be thought of
As weak

The small waves
Wear away the stone
Over time

The westerner
Misunderstands time
The nature of life

He must be constantly "doing"

His health depreciates
Because of the love of money

The world is an empty
Open space

Like a woman
It is nourishes all things

It lies low
In silence

It's okay
To be kind
And gentle

We are here to lose
You and I

Here to lose the game of life

I am here
Then I am there

I like living alone
And I don't care

I won't work
Won't work at all

There was a drone
Flying in the sky
In the park
On that day

I don't really have
Much to say

Except
It's repeating again
The cycles are repeating again

I live in a program
I cannot win

I'm poor
Alone
I don't care

This place is not
At all fair

I'm sick of those people
Go away

I don't want to see them
Not today

Watching videos
About the lives
Of others

On my computer

What about my life?
What about my life?

So alone
So alone

Driving around
In my car

Driving around
Suburban neighborhoods

These beautiful women
Will never touch me

I used to be happy

Some years ago

Now I don't feel
Much joy

I am dying
I am dying

In this terrible world

For what purpose
Is all this suffering for?

What a colossal bore

I tried to fix
My body

So alone
So alone

A planet with billions
And so alone

Heart still beating
Exercise regularly

Tomorrow
Is promised
To no man

Some people
Have fulfilling lives

Other people just suffer

I'm here
At my library

I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing

And I'm not
Doing that well
At all

Blah Blah Blah blah
Times and faces
Blah blah blah blah
Dates and places

And when I get
To the pearly gates
I'll say to St. Peter
This place better be
******* great!

For all the ****
God put us through

And their better be
Women with ******* too!

It was a cold December morning
At 3:45 AM
I woke up early
I was not going
To go through

This ordeal again

I drove down to the park
And had constipation
In the dark

But thankfully
The stool softener
Kicked in

Life's a game
I'll never win

Later I began to drive
Here and there

I'm all alone
And no one cares

The gym and Starbucks
We're closed
And I had nowhere to go

Later I would see
Mountains covered in snow

Driving around
Driving around

Life is some kind
Of Merry Go Round

I have a few friends
I'm glad I do

You learned the story
Of A Christmas poo

I drove slowly
And I saw the woman
Exchange friendly words
With the mailman

I saw a family and their children
Walking along

I saw the blind man walking
Up the street
I was reminded of
The lyrics of "Amazing Grace"

It's hard
These days
For suburban Americans

In some ways
I have very little contact
With other people

I'm at the library again.

I saw the same man
Two days in a row
At the gas station
And driving in his car

I saw my brand of car cover today

I saw tall men today
Looked like mountain men
With beards

I saw the sun set

But I didn't look into eyes
That loved and cherished me

I just prayed

I saw a car whip around
Passing a car
In the opposing lane
Dangerous driving
Could have been the end
For that person

Slowly Slowly
Do things slowly

Keep your eyes
Wide open all the time

Hello to all the dreamers
Out there
I wish I could spend time
With you

I wish I wasn't separated
From you
By physical distance

Hello from The library

Have yourself a
Merry Little Christmas
Some modern version

Playing in the background
Quite obnoxious

Here I am at Starbucks
Things don't add up

I'm alone
I stopped at Ralph's
To get my protein bars

Before that I watched
An hour or so
Of fight videos
At the library

And well
This is life?

I can only occupy one place
At one time

And it's all so strange
Is it real?

Not sure how
To explain how
I feel

A different time
A different place
A different voice
A different face

But it's all the same
To me

This place is like a matrix