um pleas answer i want to talk i think i'm depressed i put on a face all day trying to forget i'm dying i try to distance myself so i don't feel
l but not feeling hurts to. I've thought to end it too many times but i cant cause i'm too scared my dads always on my case about school because he got tired of F's and D,s. he called me a disappointment once .at school i don't have real friends just kids i talk to to numb the pain.   when i can't take it i put on another mask and cry under it because i don't want to deal with my sister's pity or my dads ******* advice about how his life ***** and he has no friend's  but he deals with it and he has us. but i don't have anyone but you but if you don't talk to me then who do i have no one. i've been grounded for a wile my dad took away my room i sleep on the couch eavry night know my clothes is in a box and fun fact all my belongings fit in half a box.

so yah pleas see this and respond it doesn't have to be related . just hi or something my party is on Saturday if you want to come ya peace

I was so sure about the path I chosen,
It was like people already knew what I "thought" I wanted, so It didn't need to be spoken.
But what I thought I wanted, actually left me broken,
and I feel the regret coursing through my body,  but its the only thing that is keeping me breathing and my eyes open.
I feel confused about what I feel,
but feeling anything at all, is what ensures me that what's happening is real.
I'm confused about what path to take,
because I know that someone will get hurt with whatever choice I make.
But the one thing that's confusing me is... am I really confused at all?
Or am I scared and refuse to make a choice, because I know what happens next is my call.
I'm scared because I refuse to believe the truth,
that can be hard to handle for someone who's tolerance hasn't caught up with their youth.
I'm scared that I already know what path I want to go,
but refuse to let the truth show.
Am I confused about my feelings, or do I refuse to believe that I already know.
Should I try to solve the problem, or let things go on its on flow.

Confuse or Refuse,
which do I feel with the paths I have to choose?

I sit here typing on my computer putting on a happy face for the world. I have trained mself to know when something is funny and how to hide myself behind these key's i type on but the truth is i am dying>i am dying from the overwhelming pressure put on my get good grades she says when i was young he says but i can't. i am dying from the hate put onto me by myself and others
mira él es tan gordo i hear them whisper their right i say to myself looking in the mirror.i sit here typing longing for death's sweet embrace wishing it would come sooner

I slowly sink here writing this wondering will anyone ever remember will these words be remembered or forgotten will we be remembered will anything be
or will we all be forgotten scientist say the sun will die in 5 billion years so we have up until then to make are mark to show we are worth more to show that we deserve not to be forgotten so i know that these words will be forgotten but hopefully i wont be

something holds me back in chains but no longer just my depression or my self hate but know by the ball and chain holding me down sinking me deeper and deeper into the end i don't know if i can escape no that's not right i don't know if i want to escape