I'm so sorry I don't know what to say
You were so young
So beautiful and brave
I'm so sorry I wasn't there to hold your hand
You had to walk alone
Through this pain that was to much to bear

You were so young, I should have asked for help
You shouldn't have cried alone
You didn't need to lock the door
I should have been there to tell them no
To kick the door open
Let you know, I love you so

You were so brave and you didn't have a clue
But I shouldn't have put this burden on you
I wish I had fought back
That we didn't listen to their words
They hurt us really bad
You didn't know we'd overcome

I'm so sorry you felt you had to cry alone
All this pain, the fear, the shame
I should have told you, you were not the one to blame
It's breaking my heart I couldn't protect you then
That I let them break you
Turned away and let you go

It's now been twenty years of painful neglect
Wounds infected, we never met
But since I've called for you, you're slowly coming back
And I know it's late but I hope you'll take my hand
Because girl I'll never let you go again

I know
It was out of my hands
I came here for a reason
It's a part of a plan

But it's a specific longing
For a specific you
So intense and strong that
You must feel it too

It's like
Our roads almost crossed
But I turned back
Moved on, went lost

Its like I know you
Feel your presence
And it's so hard to
Reach acceptance

But I know
Even if we met
I wouldn't recognise you
For i can't see clearly yet

After all these years of dwelling
How could I still be alone
Locked myself in, wasn't telling
Anyone about my song

I was trembling for a reason
Blaming every guy I met
I was not supposed to be here
Among sorrow and regret

For by now I should have met you
Had you listened to my song
And I tried so hard to reach you
That I ended up all wrong

Now I'm starting to see clearer
Realising what I've done
In my effort to get nearer
I got far away from home

And I thought that I had called you
But I never called out loud
And you couldn't even break through
Because no one was allowed

I was desperate to feel you
But I never let it show
On the inside I was screaming
On the outside I stayed low

I have blamed you for not seeing
That I needed you so bad
I was losing my wellbeing
And I started to get mad

Now I know you couldn't hear me
When I called you in my mind
When I hid you couldn't see me
And I thought that you were blind

And I know now that the reason
Why you haven't heard my song
Isn't that you wouldn't listen
But because I sang it wrong

Though eagerly repressed
Neglected
Kept out of reach
This pain managed to shape
Everything
Change
Everything
Made me numb and extremely sensitive
Left me trembling further into darkness

I tried so hard to hold it back
Turns out neglecting the pain
Just gave it time to spin out of control