Late at night, I can feel my eyes closing
But my mind's still wide awake going
A million miles an hour, spinning circles round you.
I've gotta capture this feeling before it slips away
Put it in words to make sure it's here to stay
Yeah, I'll do what I have to do.

'Cause you make me crazy, pull me through riptides
Going back and forth, baby, it's been a wild ride.
All I know is I don't know anymore.
What can't we do, as long as we have each other?
What happened to my promise to never lean on another?
But you're like no one I've met before.

You don't notice I've been watching awhile
By God, it's so beautiful when that boy smiles
And he's got a way with words that finds me.
Everyone around me will think I've gone insane.
No more dreams, I just don't want you to ever change.
When you ended my fantasies you set me free.

I won't say I love you, cause that's too intense.
Especially when loving you makes no ******* sense.
Not ready to fall, cause I'm so scared I'm wrong.
The best part of beginnings is ya can't see the end.
So go on--I'll lie and say you're just a friend
Don't make me lose the one with whom I belong.

Cut open by love, my heart's been bled dry
Said too many goodbyes, no tears left to cry
But you came along and suddenly I'm falling.
Couldn't stop those feelings from *******.

The way you control me, I must be crazy.
To love this pain, yeah, I'm going crazy.

Tried so hard to fight, but it was all a waste
Like a drug, it only takes one taste
Just one touch of sweetness, and now you own me.
Fill my head with dreams, but you're all I see.

The hope you give me, more proof I'm crazy.
Why do I see what's not there, unless I'm crazy?

While I wait to hear your voice and see your face
Thinking pain is better than the numbness it replaced
You shut me out with those walls of ice I dream of breaking.
Leaving me cold and alone, with hope to keep my heart aching.

To think we belong together, I know I'm crazy.
But I can't stop looking for a sign that I'm not crazy.

I've been chasing after illusions for too long
Holding on to a past that's so far gone
My life bleeding down the drain
Stuck in a cycle of desire and pain.

I've been trying hard to start again
Fix my life from the trainwreck that it's been
You came along just in time
Gave me some hope that things might be fine.

I don't know if I'm brave enough to really call it love.
I just know that you're the last one I'd expect to love.

I've been thinking hard these last few days
Trying to hear what my voice of reason says
I don't trust my heart.
This time I want to try to be smart.

Remember our conversations in the dark?
Can you honestly say there were no sparks?
Whenever you're by my side
Everything in the world just suddenly feels right.

I don't know if I'm brave enough to really call it love.
I just know that you're the last one I'd expect to love.

When I wore your jacket and breathed your scent
Wondering what the hell these feelings meant.
Why did your smile make me smile?
How do I know if these feelings are worthwhile?

When I'm with you there's nothing I have to hide
But you won't even let me peek your vulnerable side
How do I trust you?
How do I trust myself when I'm around you?

I don't know if I'm brave enough to really call it love.
I just know that you're the last one I'd expect to love.

It's been a while since my heart bled for you
Blood-drops as tears dripping down my cheeks
You're no longer the shadow behind everything I do
But still the sweetest of dreams I seek in my sleep.

For so many years, you were my lifeline
But letting go was the only way to set me free
The long, dark fall with no sliver of sunshine
Gave me my scars for every lovely memory.

As far as I've come, as long as I'll go
I'll love you for life and whatever comes after death
I've accepted you'll go places where I can't follow
But it'll be your eyes I see when I draw my last breath.

Loving you was how the world showed me beauty
My heartbeat grew stronger when I was by your side
What we had together was the very best part of me
You created something for me that will never die.

I can force time, distance, and willpower of mind
But my love for you will never be lost
The most valued treasure that you made mine
A dream for a different world, under a kinder God.

I've fallen fast, landed hard,
Cleaned my blood spilled.
Watched the skies for brilliant stars
Never seeing the dark.

Oh--winter nights, raining ice
When you were still just a child.
Laughing eyes, no goodbyes
The joy of a heart gone wild.

Burning heat, blinding sun
You grew to fit my world.
Touch your skin, sparks brilliance
Watch a million tales unfold.

But in the end, without the glasses
That saw everything technicolor
Back to gray, swirling masses
Seeking flashes.

Oh--winter nights, raining ice
Still thinking of you as a child.
Tearing eyes, silent goodbyes
The scars from a love too wild.

Burning heat, blinding sun
You're still everywhere in my world.
The only one, in billions
As tales and dreams unfold.

I could walk through hell and back
Blind myself to all that's past
Laugh and flirt, kiss and lie
Crush my love with every last.

But when I draw my last breath
When I have only strength to die
All I want in my mind
Is your face, the only light that's mine.

She made you a playlist with 70 songs
Talked to you on the phone all night long
She laughs and screenshots the jokes you send
Same ones that offended your other girlfriends
There's nothing quite like this sweet chemistry
That makes you say, "I've found the one for me."

Well baby, where does that leave me?
Staring straight at the truth I've refused to see.
I wouldn't hesitate to take a bullet for you
I'd stand by your side no matter what you do
I'd serve my heart to you on a silver plate
But why would you want it when you have your soul mate?

You're out of my reach and now that I know
I've got to at least decide to let you go
You were never mine from the very start
Can I cut you from my head, if not my heart?
But even as I see it's the only thing to do
I'll miss the pain of holding on to you.

I'll miss falling asleep with a smile on my face
As I think about you in your faraway place
I'll miss dreaming of an ending with you and me
Now that I know it could never be
I'll miss picking songs that remind me of you
Each bittersweet memory you've put me through

I'll miss feeling beautiful when you're by my side
Getting to shut off everyone on the outside
I'll miss the delicious agony of counting down the days
Knowing just when I'll see that smile on your face
I'll miss writing you poems and letters you'll never read
Cause there's no point giving you the love you don't need.

But the worst part of letting go of you
Is killing the hope that my deepest dreams may come true.

Spinning circles 'round a broken madness
Crimson blood-drops on endless blackness
Graceful crystal falling salty sweetness
Gentle warming, a little cleansing.

Well, I race around the circle, my pretty prison cell
Picking open scabs that could have healed so very well.
I find a knife and twist it, echo a painful cry
But brush a hand over my eyes and it'll come away dry.

I couldn't ask for more, and I can't hope for less
To crush my head and heart, I would need a painless death.
Shut me in my prison, but I've got no wrong to confess.
Except my wish to break the madness.