The morning light shines through my window,
kissing the photo of you on my wall.
I see the frame bright and shimmering, as the tears begin to fall.
I ache to hear your musical voice, the echoes of your soul.
My heart spasms, my breath disappears into the morning mist
I close my eyes and let the pain seize my body, praying, this time, it'll be quick.
A warm rush of calmness ripples across my soul
Your being whispers to my higher self, let go, let go, let go.
Yet, I cannot.

I am broken.
That’s all.
That’s all.

That last time
Was the last time
But I did not know.
I am broken
That’s all
That’s all

I said goodnight and left you
I did not understand
I did not understand
That’s all
That’s all

My soul incarnated to the sound of your heartbeat.
Your incredible soul left us to the same ancient, rhythmic beat.
My soul has loved you for longer than it has existed.
I’ll miss you and long for you beyond the existence of time.

One moment
One breath
One beat
One blink
One word
This new world invaded my soul and made a home.
Uninvited

I carry with me a Well
Not of bricks and mortar
But a deep emotional dwelling
That fills to the brim
And overflows
Sometimes with joy
Sometimes with laughter
And sometimes with pride
And out of nowhere, tears.
Such deep sorrow that I cannot contemplate
climbing out.

I look at you and see your smile...
Its almost as if you know that one day
I will need to remember it.

Each step taken is one mountain climbed
Be still the clouds so I may breathe.
The Sun beats down but burns me not
For life, so far, I have achieved.
‘Tis not for graduation, position or more
That I look, seek, work or learn
But only for me, the blowing leaf
Not waiting to take a turn.
Inside the fear is great
But greater still the fierceness grows
For a-top the mountain I shall stand
In glorious rays of my own.


Samantha August 2019