Pushing people away,
Remembering the pain.
Diving into work
Emotions restrained.
Yearning for the touch,
Faint trails on the back.
Wishing those moments
Didn’t leave such an impact.
Smiles are superficial
Emptiness left inside.
Absence of a companion
No one available to confide.
Mind kept occupied moving forward
Memories made a blur.
Heart aching for attention
Wishing for a fervor.
Lost without a path
Still finding my way.
Convinced I must do it alone,
Still pushing people away.

They say when you’re happy you hear the music.
When you’re sad you hear the words.
Music lost its melody,
Everything I hear is just verse.

I forgave the ones who hurt me,
yet the pain was still too real.
It wasn’t until I forgave myself,
that the inner wounds began to heal.

We’re adults,
But the boy in me
Will always love
The girl in you.

You moved on.
I’m happy for you.
Now, to myself,
There’s nothing I have to prove.
You moved on.
That’s surely for the best.
Thoughts of what could be
Can now be put to rest.
You moved on.
Malice replaces my place in your heart.
I’m try to keep it together,
But it’s tearing me apart.
You moved on.

I told you what love was,
that I know now.
Believe me when I say
that was the only way I knew how.
It was never physical
and I never raised my voice.
I guess I forced you to say it
leaving you with no other choice.
This here is my apology,
although it may fall on deaf ears.
I’m just now realizing what I’ve done,
even after all these years.

Oh sweet little love of mine
We could meet again for the first time.
I thought what we had was true.
Truth is I never really knew you.

Let my words caress your body,
open your mind and let them slide in.
Let them tickle your thoughts,
take your mind to the brink of sin.
Let my words wrap you in warmth,
release all your insecurities within.
Let them kiss memories of the past,
take you to cherished places you’ve been.
Let my words over power your inhibition,
succumb to their devise.
Let them nibble at your ears,
run wet lips inward on your thighs.
Let my words cuddle you tight,
safely in their grasp, limp you lie.
Let them inseminate passion into your life,
show you a love no other can quantify.

Your love is situational.
My love is unconditional.
You knew it.
Still know it.

Everyone says I could do way better,
but you are all I ever wanted.

I offer my all and fall too hard
There is no time too long
No distance too far.
Fall for my looks,
Our night will be fun.
Fall for my mind,
Your search for love will be done.
There are no walls to break down,
You’ll know the real me from the start.
Share your dreams, goals and passions,
Ill share with you, my heart.

I may have over used the word
when I was younger,
but I could never hear it
or say it again
as long as I see it.

When I see vehicles pass by
that resemble yours,
I half hope you are not in it,
but always get disappointed when it’s not you.

It’s never easier, you just learn to cope.
Everyone says to just move on.
I wish it were that simple.
Nope.

Cold turkey is only good on a sandwich.
Not when you have to stop caring.
The only way I’d eat that sandwich is if you made it.
And you never made me a ‘sammich’.
I guess I’ll stay hungry.
Goodbye knucklehead.

My memories are heady.
Got me feeling needy.
I will never see you in the same light that you see me.
My feelings are up and down,
just like the ocean.
Got me messed up over word that were never spoken.
What’s left of my heart is just an empty cave.
Something all the prayers in the world could never save.
I did my best even though I had clear cues.
You stopped wanting me even though I wanted you.
I spiraled and was stuck in a mental state.
If only you knew the scary things I’d contemplate.
You said things that were cruel and untrue.
Like how I never care or gave a **** about you.
You wanted the comfort of a relationship for everyone to see.
No effort, you went from one to the next with such ease.
Knowing all that, tell who really didn’t care.
I guess it’s true when they say life is unfair.
If you read this, from you I need no verbal suture.
Just remember what you do to people in the future.
All that aside, I still wish you the best.
Just a few things I had to get off my chest.
I thought I was over it, but now I’m in my head.
There are certain things better left unsaid.