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Athalia May 2019
See we learn from our mistakes but
I did...in a way
At first he said he loves me and he begged me but
I let him in.
He hurt me and he blamed me and I
Took the blame....shame on me!
The second time he dissimulated me but
I was allured
He also begged me and I ohh
I let him in.......
This time he hurt me and he is apethatic..
And my ohh my I'm hurt.
All my relationships ended the same way, the guys both cheated
They thought I was cheating but I guess even if I cheated I would've played my cards right. So her girlfriend texted me and asked If we dating and I said yes which was true,later he texted and asked if him and I are still dating I ignored him and earlier today he posted videos and pictures of him and the girl. Since there's no one I can trust writing about it helps me vent out as I have no one but myself.
Athalia Apr 2019
The night is peaceful but it's dark
The day is happy and is glowing

I am the night ....
I am peace but I am dark...
Peace comes to me but the dark is me,
I do good at night when I am alone,
But do bad during the day... I still fail myself in both times
But I still do good too in both times,

What am I?
The night you long for.. Or
The happiness and glowing...covered in darkness,
With peacefulness....
Athalia May 2019
We loved each other,
More than we did with one another,
You said I changed,
I said you never loved me,




We were estranged to each other.
.
Athalia Feb 2019
Ohh wow
What does he miss
He says us...but
He broke us, he ended us
So how does he miss me

I moved on
With my lover
I suggested he does that too
He had already but I encouraged him more

Even after I did he said
He misses me
Athalia Jan 2019
I'm lost in my lover
He forgot to save me
In his own heart, he had forgotten me

I am found by my new lover
Who loves me, but he is apprehensive

I was forgotten, by the previous lover
that I ever existed
But I am found by my new lover
He says I won't be lost.
Athalia Jan 2019
Can I have a few days of sleep
As my wish
I want to rest
I havent been sleeping
Im not okay...

Im trembling over my own tiredness
I just want to rest
Relax my head on my pumped pillow
And lay my body towards the bed end
I want to hear the sound of my heart..relieved

Im not okay
I want to rest
Athalia May 2019
It all started with the irritating cares and unwanted love but it was good
It ended up being love that included butterfly bugs in the stomach and beautiful smiles that brightened a day
It was fun, esspecially the morning texts and hearthy kisses and hugs, the meaningful *** and the emotions expressed.
It all ended when jealousy and love was misused
When lies came out to be displayed
When love disappeared instantly
When revenge replaced love
And when hurt became honesty
When loyalty had no use

All that in just a month
This was piercing my heart,
That I loved more than I loved myself
That I was an option instead of a potential candidate to someone
That I loved and tried by all means to show it but it wasn't enough

I hurt him and him
I caused myself pain and drought to my eyes
I caused instability and insecurity to my heart and mind
I killed the confidence of love just like they killed my confidence of trust
After so many days I still get sleepless nights, hoping that someday this will all be a dream and we'll all be good together but instead I wake up to a world of dishonesty and hate

We won't die for I know but we will be killing the most purest hearts..

I now know that it'll all be well.
There can never be peace if we still see natural mistakes in one another.
Athalia May 2019
I'm shy but I can be rude
I'm direful but I can be thoughtful
I'm stooge but I can also be a subjugator
Instead
I prefer to be inarticulate
To be the best of a person I can become
To live in Gods image as I was made by the Father Almighty
But never to be a snide.
Athalia May 2019
My light lightened the room in which I was born in
It gave me light whenever I was in the darkness
So I plead..
Show me know light once more
Lighten up my path so I can walk..walk with me be my guide
it is dark very dark but with you there's always hope .. lighten up my path and be my guide my light.
I feel lonely and my parents aren't emotionally there..
I'm dead.
Athalia May 2019
He is great
Is almost the same height as me but a bit taller
He has a huskier voice..that I like..
He's always with me at least when he gets time
He laughs a lot and smiles when with me..
He said he is scared of being with me.but
Does he love me...
I've tried to distance myself from him but he keeps finding
His way to me nor does he notice I'm distancing myself from him...
He fascinates me but he scares me.
His whiskey hair underneath his ear is worth my time looking
If he does...if we do... he'll be the last of my love.
Athalia Apr 2019
Days and days
Of weeks and weeks of
Months and months.

I feel empty and open....
For vulnerability of course.
We loved each other and you loved me more....
On the fourth month it seemed our love was dying.
The fourth month I say....
Killed us in the name of me.
Athalia Feb 2019
Je,ni jahannamu kwa nani
Nakupenda hata wakati unaniumiza
Tuli kuwa na kila mmoja
Lakini tulipoteana
Na sasa ninakutafuta
Lakini hutaki kupatikana
Athalia Jan 2019
I don't know either
My peers, parents and lover says
it's earth.

I disagree
What is Earth with the darkness in people
Darkness is meant for the night
When there is no sun

Is Earth the one with people who hate,
Laugh, bewitch, love,respect and lie¿

I know Earth and I'm not on Earth
Athalia Oct 2019
Poor me knows how to love and not love those who need love but those that dont.
I know how to initiate deeds in twos, I know how to create something from nothing to loving from hurting.
Laughter is my soothing world it knows me better than anyone else.
Skeptivity is my dreadful world. Only it knows when im not well.
Love is my most favorite words that even when I don't know what to say I definitely will say it.
Happiness is my scapegoat bestfriend it uses me to please others and sadly I have no say.
Peace is the first love of every chapter I open ....it seizes endurence.
Hurt is my true friend and only thy knows my life.

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