Athalia

Athalia May 2019

See we learn from our mistakes but
I did...in a way
At first he said he loves me and he begged me but
I let him in.
He hurt me and he blamed me and I
Took the blame....shame on me!
The second time he dissimulated me but
I was allured
He also begged me and I ohh
I let him in.......
This time he hurt me and he is apethatic..
And my ohh my I'm hurt.

All my relationships ended the same way, the guys both cheated
They thought I was cheating but I guess even if I cheated I would've played my cards right. So her girlfriend texted me and asked If we dating and I said yes which was true,later he texted and asked if him and I are still dating I ignored him and earlier today he posted videos and pictures of him and the girl. Since there's no one I can trust writing about it helps me vent out as I have no one but myself.

Athalia Apr 2019

The fourth month

Days and days
Of weeks and weeks of
Months and months.

I feel empty and open....
For vulnerability of course.
We loved each other and you loved me more....
On the fourth month it seemed our love was dying.
The fourth month I say....
Killed us in the name of me.

Athalia Apr 2019

Dead me

The night is peaceful but it's dark
The day is happy and is glowing

I am the night ....
I am peace but I am dark...
Peace comes to me but the dark is me,
I do good at night when I am alone,
But do bad during the day... I still fail myself in both times
But I still do good too in both times,

What am I?
The night you long for.. Or
The happiness and glowing...covered in darkness,
With peacefulness....

#lawn

Athalia Feb 2019

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Athalia Feb 2019

Upendo ni kuzimu

Je,ni jahannamu kwa nani
Nakupenda hata wakati unaniumiza
Tuli kuwa na kila mmoja
Lakini tulipoteana
Na sasa ninakutafuta
Lakini hutaki kupatikana

Athalia Feb 2019

He misses me

Ohh wow
What does he miss
He says us...but
He broke us, he ended us
So how does he miss me

I moved on
With my lover
I suggested he does that too
He had already but I encouraged him more

Even after I did he said
He misses me

Athalia Jan 2019

Im not okay

Can I have a few days of sleep
As my wish
I want to rest
I havent been sleeping
Im not okay...

Im trembling over my own tiredness
I just want to rest
Relax my head on my pumped pillow
And lay my body towards the bed end
I want to hear the sound of my heart..relieved

Im not okay
I want to rest