Thank you for being here
Thank you for staying all this time
Thank you for doing your best
Thank you for saying goodbye

Thank you for holding onto me
Even when my grandmother died
Thank you for the feeling of being seen
Even when I internally cried

Thank you for making it quick
Thank you for being clear
Thank you for the happiness and memories
Thank you for everything

Last night
I didn’t send a lovey goodnight
This morning
I didn’t say goodmorning Lizie

When will I wake up

600 I love yous
600 different meanings
600 of the same intent

Where did that go
I don’t know
I just miss the afterglow

Is this real?
Yesterday life was life
I could feel happiness
Now I’m numb
I still feel pain
It won’t go
I still feel sick
It won’t ever go
And after all of this
I’m still hopeful
Who made me like this
I’m not good at heartbreak
Even after a fourth time

I have no one
Nobody to tell me it’ll be okay
Nobody to support me
Nobody to hold me

I’m alone
Left in my puddle of sorrow
This is me
This is Sean

He’s not evil
He’s not some stupid boy
He doesn’t intentionally hurt people
He just gets damaged

I’m so broken
I’m not even broken
I’m so lost
That, I am

I don’t know how to act
If I live my life
If I drop it all
I can’t even think of any future

One night
Took it all away
And nobody to blame
I don’t know what schemes went on

I’m just left here
Completely alone
No friends, no support, no nothing
Empty

I thought I couldn’t cry
I didn’t know why
Now I know
You kept me whole

I miss you
I’m trying to be strong
But it’s really hard
Not to worry you or anything

I don’t want to be here
Or anywhere
Unless I’m talking to you
I miss you