I know I wasn’t here
I’m trying to be
I just don’t want to mess up
I don’t want us to run into problems

I’m scared
I have one vulnerable point in my life
And that’s being stressed
It makes me feel sick

But it’s okay
I still love you
And I miss you baby
I hope you’re getting better

Keys
MY keys
For MY car
My brother in the passenger seat
Of MY car
My mom in the back seat
Still my car!

I pray first gear will be smooth
Somehow everyone’s head stayed still
I shift to second
Can’t win all your battles…
But I’m smiling
Not because I know where I’m going
I know who I’m going to

We pull in to the Wa
I’m not sure if I locked my car
My mind is racing
I feel nervous-
But in a lovey dovey feel

I lay my eyes on her
She smiles
I smile back
Not on purpose-
I felt like it-
Similar to a dog wagging its tail

We order our food
I walk to the drinks
There she is
The most beautiful person I’ve ever seen
My favorite girl-
My baby

Somehow I manage to stumble on a hi
Who does that?
I wait to make a stupid quip
Since when am I careful on my quips??
I can’t stop looking into her gorgeous eyes
Why can’t I stop feeling in love???

Soon I watch her walk back
I can’t help but eye her down
Not that she isn’t anything I haven’t seen
She’s not something ever worth drifting from-
Even with just my eyes

And in that moment
I feel safe
My public anxiety fails to hold me down
My world is right here
I’m sticking by it
Even as I stall the car at the stop sign…

When will I not **** up
Why can’t I do it now

Such a simple phrase
A phrase I’ve heard said so many times
I never understood it mattered
I never understood until I knew you

You make my heart flutter with every breath
Each glance makes my chest warm and fuzzy
And I love how you do that
You’re like a magical lover

We say I love you
And I mean I’m just so **** in love with you
I’m in love with the fact you’re with me
I’m in love with the thought of you feeling the same

Sure we miss one another
But I love that too
Every second you’re gone-you’re still here
Like you said- we’re a forever thing

I can’t stop saying I love you
But it isn’t a plea
I say it because I love that it’s true
I say it because I know you love me

I trace your name across the night sky,
but the stars already know your name.
There’s no way to know for certain which direction you are,
so I spend enough time staring at each angle,
hoping we lock eyes for a second.

Sure I couldn’t tell you how much I miss you,
but I definitely couldn’t describe just how much I love you.
My morning rays of sunshine,
my reliable best friend,
my most comforting night pillow.

I used to think your name like a plea,
Now I come running into your warm embrace.
For my one and only,
my sweet baby,
I love you,
forever and always.

I don’t crash on you because you cause it
I crash on you because you’re the only person I can trust with me

My ill timed crashes aren’t because of you
They’re delayed because you stop me

I go to sleep feeling loved
That’s what you have to blame yourself for

I don’t blame you for being real with me
I accept, understand, embrace all of you

The world-
Cruel,
Unjust,
Dark

Us-
Bright,
Passionate,
Hopeful

I don’t care what it thinks
What it tries to do to stop us
We’re working against the world
And still,
you’re the only thing that makes sense