I’ve been as honest as I can be.
I haven’t lied,
I haven’t not tried,
I haven’t even cried.
So why does it feel like you’re reaching too far inside.

How I feel,
Is for my heart,
Also known as me and her,
And considered none of your business.
Also, you haven’t asked about that.
I’m not sure I could tell you,
Not because I’m afraid of any consequence,
But because I made a promise,
And I intend to keep it.

You don’t know.
Not me,
Not this,
Not that,
Not anything.

You should leave now.
Before my problems make you sick too.

I can’t be there today
I understand
I’m still here anyway
Ready at a moments notice to offer a hand

You wonder why I’m here
But doesn’t it make sense?
I wonder why you’re here
Yet we know the answers

I’m sorry I can’t write more
But you don’t want to hear that
You want to hear anything I’ve said before
Don’t worry-I’m still intact

Burning
Dreadful
Sickening
Fearful

My anxiety slowly eats at me
It consumes my stomach first
Then it reaches for my mind
Before it attacks my heart

That’s when she steps in
My princess
My baby
My…savior?

Yes we heard it right
My dearly beloved
Whom I’ve sworn to never hurt
Has saved me from my sea of emotions

That pains turns to a void
The nausea slowly fading
And my fear-
Becomes barrels of love

I’m not sure why I am how I am
I just know she loves me for all of me
I’m not sure why she hates parts of her
I love her the same way

She’s tall
She’s fearless
She’s strong
She’s mine

And when I’m in desperate need
When I need a hero
I don’t even have to call
She comes flying

There’s this curve in your smile
that feels like sunrise-
not the blinding kind,
but the kind that just… shows up.
Slowly,
softly,
and all of a sudden I realize
I’m not cold anymore.

Your laugh-
it’s the kind of sound
that makes the world forget
it ever tried to break me.
It floats through the air
like it knows
it’s the best thing it’s ever carried.

And then there’s me.
Just orbiting you.
Nervous.
Tripping over my words,
saying too much or not enough
but feeling more alive than I’ve ever been.
You make now feel like the only thing that matters.

Because every time I look in your eyes,
it’s not just you I see.
I see home.
I see late nights and quiet mornings
I haven’t even lived yet.
I see a truth I didn’t know I needed
until the moment you looked back.

You’re always here.
Even when you’re not.
Even in the silence.
You’re still the one thing
that doesn’t shift.
And for the first time,
time doesn’t feel like it’s running out.
It feels like it’s with me.
Because you are.

When I say I love you,
I don’t mean I just love you,
Your beauty,
Your talent,
Your dedication

I mean I love the way you accept me,
Even when nobody else can

I love whatever feeling you’re having,
Because I have the chance to know it

I love the way you tell a story,
It feels like I knew all of it from the start

I love the way you look at me,
Telling me our love will always last

I love the way you let me support you,
Even when it’s too hard to speak on

I love the way you love me,
You make every moment a gift to always remember

When I say I love you,
I mean I love all of you,
Every moment-every laugh-every cry,
I love every second you choose me,
I love being your first,
I love you Lizie

You may be sorry, but I’ll never accept it.
You may be tired, but I don’t want you spending your remaining energy feeling bad for me.
I’m always yours, and that means that I’m always here.
It’s not a problem for me to be your everything, I’m just returning the favor.
Don’t let your heart bleed for me, let it rest with me.

There once was a girl,
A very special girl
I thought she was everything,
And at the same time,
Too perfect
I couldn’t see myself with her
She was taller,
She was stunning,
She made people smile and laugh,
She left good impressions
She was out of my league

But soon I learned,
There’s no such thing as incompatible,
Not for us
She let me in,
Making me filled with nerves,
Even sending me to the hospital for anxiety!
But still,
Every moment felt like a dream,
My depression sank until it left my soul,
And all I felt was her presence,
Slowly growing an unwavering love

But,
Me being the idiot I am,
I let her go
I thought she deserved better,
And she’d like being with someone,
Not waiting with someone
Until hours turned to days,
Days turned to weeks,
Weeks into months,
And all I did was miss her
I just wanted her back
And when I locked eyes with her,
When I felt her presence next to me in the sun,
I could feel it in the air,
In the sun reflecting off her beautiful skin,
We weren’t meant to end here

And so I gave her my all,
Loving her deeper through everything,
Until the day she asked me,
“Do you ever wonder what would’ve happened, had we stayed together”
I knew
I couldn’t mess this up again
I loved her harder than ever
And she did too
Every goodnight like a promise,
Each Goodmorning a sign of trust and care

Now
My dream girl,
Who really couldn’t exist
My baby I couldn’t have,
Because she’s all I need
All I want,
All I can think of desiring
Is mine
She lets me know it,
And I’m sharing this,
Just to let her know,
I love her too