The day I saw you play my piano
Making everyone smile
Singing like no one else was in the room
It changed my life forever

I started taking piano lessons
I think you graduated by the time I got anywhere
But I wish I could’ve told you

My sax started seeming like a goal
Not a thing I picked up to “practice”
What is practice anymore
It’s just for my enjoyment
It’s a hobby
A habit

Now I’m earning district medals
And it’s because of you
And I don’t know how to tell you
You created my life
Thank you

This fruit tastes like nothing
I think after brushing my teeth
This apple juice tastes sour
Yet still I drink, fearing being noticed
Morning anxiety, morning problems

You’re not here
And I know it’s okay, because you’re safe
I’m just stuck keeping my thoughts to myself
Yet if you weren’t here, I’d have never opened
Morning loneliness, morning problems

I feel sick
Every morning
Nothing can fix it
It only goes away when I tell you about it
Or I can’t worry about it
Because I’m worrying about you
Morning sickness, morning problems

So are you my queen in gold armor
Because you seem to fight off
The morning problems

For of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: ‘It might have been.’
— John Greenleaf Whittier

I’m not sure where to start
I can start with endless apologizing
Or that can be the end so my point is clear
Or I can just not
Maybe I’ve done enough already

Enough damage to you
To everything I touch
Or don’t touch

I know you feel cursed
Every time I come in to your life I go
But this time is different
It’s different because I hurt you

I did promise
That I wouldn’t leave
And to be honest
When I promise to you it isn’t restricting my actions
It’s telling you what I believe and plan and will do

I know I broke a promise
A huge one
And I beat myself up every second for it

But it doesn’t change anything
I’m still here
I’m hurting
But there’s nobody I’d rather talk to
No one I’d rather support
Than you

And I hope I can help take away my damage
I hope I can make you happy again
And I won’t stop trying

I can’t beg anything more from you
I’m here though
Forever and always

Hey twig
You’re a pretty hot twig

Just Swingin in this hammock
My brother pushing it side to side
Crafting up words to write in my head
But I know won’t sound good on paper

I always write them for you
Even when I just form it in my head
And when I think of nothing
It’s about you
When I think of everything
It’s everything you
So here goes, the lines in my head
Don’t judge me
I’m only sixteen

I think about life
But I think about you
What are the definitions of these words?
I don’t see a difference
Couldn’t take you out of my mind
Not because I’ve tried
But because I wouldn’t ever want to

Eliza is the name I’ve always wanted to call
Not just at random of course
But because it’s perfect for you
I think I knew your name before I knew your name
I think I knew what we could be

I’m letting down the barriers indefinitely
I’m staying completely open
But only for you
It’s only worth it for you

It’s all for you

Those gorgeous deep blue eyes
Stunning gold hair
Tempting lips I’ve thought of for over a year
And behind all of that, a person
One who understands everything I say
Who cares about me more than anyone else
And makes every moment impossible to not smile

This is the kind of person they depict in the movies
I thought it couldn’t be real
But then here you are
Smiling every time our eyes lock on
I’ve been calling it fate
But it feels more like purpose

I don’t want to be here if it isn’t to make you happy
I feel like there’s a necessity
To make sure you’re okay
And to do my **** best to do well beyond that
Whether it’s sitting in band talking about Dexter Gordon
Or late night texting about our future
I’ve wanted this
And now that it’s here, I want to be here to stay

Call me ignorant
The way I can’t be convinced you’re not everything I need
Call me a fool
For not giving up even when it gets difficult
Call me love drawn
The way I always come back to you
I really don’t care
All I care about is you