I know it’s not simple
I know I can’t be a solution
But I’m still here to help
And maybe some of the words I put down will make a mark
A mark significant enough for you to see your beauty as I do

You’re not weak for coping as you do
You’re open to me about it and you know what you’re doing
I see strength in finding a way to not hurt others
It does hurt, maybe sting a bit, to see your pain
But I understand and I’m not capable of judging you for it

You have a lot of care to give
It’s a thing I admire about you
You’re focused, you aim to achieve, even not knowing what you’re doing
Don’t let your accomplishments diminish because of what ifs or buts
The truth is it could never be enough
Could
But it is
And next year I’ll be cheering you on just the same
Don’t worry about results, trust yourself in the process, enjoy it, and don’t beat yourself up for being human
I’m sure the first chair is just as much if not more bummed by not making regions

Your self image isn’t how I see you
Nor how anyone else does
And I understand why you think the way you do
It’s something I beat myself up for as well
But there’s nothing wrong with you
If there was I’d be the first to tell you
And here’s the list of things wrong with you:
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Everything I see in you
The easiness to understand
And the love that boils up until it shoots out
Whether it be in a poem or a text or a glance
Makes you easy to love
And to hell if it’s just me who sees you as great as I do
I know in my heart your worth
To yourself, to me, to the universe
And to be frank with you
It’s never gonna be enough for what you deserve
I just hope you can find me deserving
And easy to love

Hours passed,
Turning into days,
Then to months,
Until it had been almost a year

I still remember
The days of sleeping on the couch
Haunted by my bed
My outlet
My tv

I thought that night would never end
The morning felt like a typical colorful day
We were talking about random things
You complained about your allergies
But then
In one snap
Everything darkened

I can’t remember the exact amount of time
Could be 7 hours 32 minutes and around forty two estimated seconds
I spent awake on the couch
Staring at the wall
Thinking of us
Or what used to be us
Probably what could’ve been us


And soon came a long era
Of lying to myself to create brightness
Of emotions I couldn’t contain
Thoughts that triggered me
Until it almost consumed me
And I was back in school
Surrounded by you

God I prayed that I would be around you
Even though I knew nothing would happen
I’d fight my best friend over standing next to you in the stands
But I’m glad I won every time

I know the story is you hurt me in the fall
But in truth,
You opened my heart back up
And although you took the hits from that
It made the inevitable make sense
If something is impossible,
And makes sense,
What you’ve got is something
And that’s not to give up on

I’ve always seeked approval from you
Wanting you to see me as something to keep
Or to obtain
Life just doesnt work that way though
I can’t make you want me
Which is why the inevitability is my second greatest ally
The first would be you

You asked me if I’m in
Kind of silly if you ask me
Oh wait
You did

I’ve been wanting you since I first heard you speak my name
So sweet and innocent
The way you said it nobody could repeat
Except for the one

I’m sure of it
Convinced

And right now
I’m not fighting alone with a tortured heart
I’m joining forces
One tortured heart to another
We’ll find our way through
We’re already together
And I won’t lose
You
You won’t lose
Me
You and Me
We work like peanut butter and jelly
I’m stuck to you
Best believe I’m not going

Can we do airplane arms on the 45 again
Can we learn Dexter together again
Can we do so many things we’ve dreamed of
Text me and kiss me
Call me and hug me

Girl I want you so bad
I got it bad and it feels so good
That’s how I feel for you

My heart won’t stop pulsating for you
And I don’t want it to either
You’re the one
I want you

Why can’t I stop
Where am I getting these words from
Each line
Each sentence
Feels like a desperate cry
For dreams to meet reality
For your hand to be placed in mine

When does it end
When does the reality check land on us
When can I finally be done dreaming
When can I instead be living
A life I can built with you
Pure and genuine

We won’t give up
We won’t retaliate

We can’t fight non verbalized wars

My hearts stays pure to you

As it’s the only version of me that’s true

I’m sure you have the slightest clue

All I want is you

Girl you’re the only thing that makes sense in life

The only person who understands
Only one who listens
Only understander
Only listener
Only true lover

So the words fly to my beating heart
I’m wondering
Do yours flow too
And if so
May they speak to me

Anything.
Anything at all.
I just want to end up with her.
I know her secrets, her issues, all the problems she thinks she has and knows she has.
I just see beauty in it.
I see beauty in her.
Beauty in her.
Her
Beauty

It’s the way both of us think the same way, and can talk ab ourselves or one another and feel at ease
The fact we can talk endlessly in our own world and time just continues to speed up, and that even when one or both of us is taken, it remains to be apparent to others there’s hearts around us and in our eyes
But they only resonate in secret, fearing the consequences of being found out

It’s not always bright
there can be darkness
but it’s got a bit of sentimental value to it there’s joy to be caught
even in small amounts