I trace your name across the night sky,
but the stars already know your name.
There’s no way to know for certain which direction you are,
so I spend enough time staring at each angle,
hoping we lock eyes for a second.

Sure I couldn’t tell you how much I miss you,
but I definitely couldn’t describe just how much I love you.
My morning rays of sunshine,
my reliable best friend,
my most comforting night pillow.

I used to think your name like a plea,
Now I come running into your warm embrace.
For my one and only,
my sweet baby,
I love you,
forever and always.

I don’t crash on you because you cause it
I crash on you because you’re the only person I can trust with me

My ill timed crashes aren’t because of you
They’re delayed because you stop me

I go to sleep feeling loved
That’s what you have to blame yourself for

I don’t blame you for being real with me
I accept, understand, embrace all of you

The world-
Cruel,
Unjust,
Dark

Us-
Bright,
Passionate,
Hopeful

I don’t care what it thinks
What it tries to do to stop us
We’re working against the world
And still,
you’re the only thing that makes sense

I’ve been as honest as I can be.
I haven’t lied,
I haven’t not tried,
I haven’t even cried.
So why does it feel like you’re reaching too far inside.

How I feel,
Is for my heart,
Also known as me and her,
And considered none of your business.
Also, you haven’t asked about that.
I’m not sure I could tell you,
Not because I’m afraid of any consequence,
But because I made a promise,
And I intend to keep it.

You don’t know.
Not me,
Not this,
Not that,
Not anything.

You should leave now.
Before my problems make you sick too.

I can’t be there today
I understand
I’m still here anyway
Ready at a moments notice to offer a hand

You wonder why I’m here
But doesn’t it make sense?
I wonder why you’re here
Yet we know the answers

I’m sorry I can’t write more
But you don’t want to hear that
You want to hear anything I’ve said before
Don’t worry-I’m still intact

Burning
Dreadful
Sickening
Fearful

My anxiety slowly eats at me
It consumes my stomach first
Then it reaches for my mind
Before it attacks my heart

That’s when she steps in
My princess
My baby
My…savior?

Yes we heard it right
My dearly beloved
Whom I’ve sworn to never hurt
Has saved me from my sea of emotions

That pains turns to a void
The nausea slowly fading
And my fear-
Becomes barrels of love

I’m not sure why I am how I am
I just know she loves me for all of me
I’m not sure why she hates parts of her
I love her the same way

She’s tall
She’s fearless
She’s strong
She’s mine

And when I’m in desperate need
When I need a hero
I don’t even have to call
She comes flying

There’s this curve in your smile
that feels like sunrise-
not the blinding kind,
but the kind that just… shows up.
Slowly,
softly,
and all of a sudden I realize
I’m not cold anymore.

Your laugh-
it’s the kind of sound
that makes the world forget
it ever tried to break me.
It floats through the air
like it knows
it’s the best thing it’s ever carried.

And then there’s me.
Just orbiting you.
Nervous.
Tripping over my words,
saying too much or not enough
but feeling more alive than I’ve ever been.
You make now feel like the only thing that matters.

Because every time I look in your eyes,
it’s not just you I see.
I see home.
I see late nights and quiet mornings
I haven’t even lived yet.
I see a truth I didn’t know I needed
until the moment you looked back.

You’re always here.
Even when you’re not.
Even in the silence.
You’re still the one thing
that doesn’t shift.
And for the first time,
time doesn’t feel like it’s running out.
It feels like it’s with me.
Because you are.