You remind me what it is like to smile again,
to pick up a pen that sends a positive message,
you salvage the wreckage that is my life
my light seems to flicker on and off
but I scoff at those who say I'm living in darkness.
I fall apart often trying not to get lost in
the crosshairs of two shooters crossing pistols,
I fall apart often believing in false prophets
that gives me warning and false cautions.
But I have you to pick me up every time
every line I write is a appreciation of you
of how you made the blue in my life vanish
and banished the negative emotions
that drizzles into an ocean drowning everything.
You are the sun when there is darkness,
you are the mountains and the harness
that keeps me safe and happy.
You are everything beautiful in my life
remind me one more time that tonight-
you still love me.

My heart beats for you, the familiar door knock
it's not chained up or locked so enter at your will,
come live inside my heart for free, it is always open
for a golden sunshine like you.

I recognise envious eyes,
jealousy runs in my life like a knife-
that plunges into the spine of a hero,
a worshipped figure can still get stitches.
This is the epilogue of a life distorted,
bordering on borderline personality disorders.
This is my life, the green eyed monster is watching,
being honestly cautious of my responses
I make it my responsibility to remove the hostility.
I put out a net, restricting its movement
but it spends its time slithering through it.
This is me at my truest,
jealous hearted, falling apart but falling in darkness often
like I'm lost in my own coffin, coughing from the option of breathing in dirt and dust or not breathing at all. This is me,
I am embracing the hardest feeling to admit,
I am envious,
I am jealous.