Pain turns into anger
It creates monsters out of us
Its hard to control
We yell
We scream
We punch
We kick
We hurt
But it just get worse
Every minute
The pain grows
Regret
Sorrow
Fights
Love
But we can fight back
Are you going to let the pain take over
Are you gonna sit there and let it turn into....
Anger

Trust can be valuable
It is not given but...earned
Trust can be difficult to earn for some
But easy for others
Trust can be easily lost, someone can easily break it
Trust bonds two people together and when its broken...

Its hard to regain, and sometimes people don't want to regain it
Trust is like legos
You can build it up but...
You can easily tear it down
Trust is not given it is earned

I want to go back in time
I want to rewrite some things
I want to restart
I want to hit the backspace button
…….
I want to go back when we were kids
When we shared everything
Crushes
Deep thoughts
Funny moments
Everything
But life doesn't work that way
Its not like a computer
When we make a mistake we cant just hit the backspace
We cant restart
We have to keep going
We have to leave the past
We have to move on even though it can be hard
People change
When their scared I guess they ignore you
I guess the act like you dont know each other
I guess they don't want to talk to you
I guess they were just your friend because they felt they had too
So I guess this is
Goodbye

Why...

By: Madisyn Cowden

In memory of Franco Cesana


Why was my life ruined

Why were we taken here

Why do they hate us

Why did I have to miss my Bar Mitzvah

Why am I losing hope

Why can’t I be happy

Why are they killing us

Why are they full of hatred

Why can’t I just be a kid

Why can’t I go to school

Why am I despised….

Is it because I'm jewish

Is it because I lost my father when I was young

Is it because you don't believe what I’m passionate about

Is it because you think everyone has to be the same

Is it because i'm different

I have worked so hard for you

I made your ammunition

I helped you

But

You took me away from my family

You murdered my friends and family

All I hear is gunshots

Falling to my knees

I am dying, it is hard to breathe

What is this feeling

Is it hope...

Is it thankfulness…

Is it happiness…

Is it sadness…

No, no none of these

It was forgiveness?

No no no that can’t be right

But it was, I felt forgiveness

And then it became dark

I see nothing….

Then I knew I had died

I died not having a childhood

I am not invisible but to my friends, I am
I am not a ghost but to my friends, I am
when they leave me it hurts
when they never say hello it hurts
when they never ask me how I am, it hurts
when they don't ask about my day, it hurts
when they leave me, it hurts
when they ignore me, it hurts
but
I do all these thing for them
I say hello
I ask them how they are
I ask them about their day
I never leave any of them behind
I always listen to them
but
when I'm around them I am a ghost
they never notice me
I wish, I wish every day that
Maybe just, Maybe they will notice me
I try so hard
I try to talk to them
I try to keep up with them
I try to be kind
I try to fit in with them
but
it all fails
it fails so many times
they leave me in the dust
they leave me to rot
they leave me
but
I have no more hope
I have given up
I will forever live invisible

When I sit in front of you do you see me
When I cry infront of you do you care
When I left the friend group did you care
When I thought about suicide did you care
When I try to speak up did you care
Saying is not always doing
You say you care but do you really show it..