Only one foot through the door as a blast of suffocating air enters my lungs
Room full, people talking, people laughing, none telling the truth
Dramas said, rumor is spread, none of it is true
Every answer to a question is that they're doing just fine
But I can see the truth
I can feel their pain
It's written all over there bleached teeth, done up hair, and plastered smiles
Held back screams and bleeding palms from the digging of nails
No one can step up
None wish to be the outcast asking for this madness to stop
If only they knew what I knew, that no one wants this
But they've gone blind from their screens
They've gone deaf from the drama
And they've lost feeling from all the cut marks

It ***** being the only sain person
Because then you start to see just how truly insane everyone is

It stops
It starts
Light flickering in the darkness
Eyes blood red
Teeth sharp as a knife
Ink painted on his skin
Clothing worn from use
A Smirk
A grin
A smile
He knows whats coming next
And so do I

"Welcome home soldier boy"

There is a voice in my head

It tells me to run
But I don't
It tells me to grab the knife
But I don't
It tells me to scream
But I don't

It listens to every word, analyzing it
It picks up everyone's emotions and feels it
It sees everything from a car passing by to a leaf in the wind
It feels the tick of a clock from across the street

This is what voices do
They sense things
Everyone has a voice, but their voices don't like to talk
Mine does

I'm not crazy,  I'm just too sain
I see the same as ten others put together would
I feel others emotions and analyze them like twenty therapists put together could
I don't feel it though, the voice in my head does
And he's been screaming at me for the past four years

I could make it stop
But he's the only company I have

I read your word every morning
Each letter like a bullet to the heart

These bullets are different
Because they help bleed out the darkness

But with an open wound that I do not know have to close
Fear finds its way in and starts eating me alive

I have done wrong
I have done right
And fear keeps telling me that the wrong overrides the right

Don't listen to fear my dear
He wants your blood

He feeds on your broken dreams
And helps rip apart your cracked heart

So bandage up that bullet wound
Distract yourself for as long as possible
Because at some point you'll forget the hole was even there

Only pain gives me the sensation of you being with me
Which is why I'm afraid I'll lose you
Because I grew up in darkness, bathed in pain all my life
And I never realized how much it hurt till I saw the light

Before you, I could see the stars
They would keep me at bay
But since your light passed me by brighter than the sun
I have gone blind

The stars have disappeared
Every crevis in the mountain which once shown light
has faded away to nothing
I can no longer see

Maybe this is good
Maybe I've gone mad
Maybe your not even real
But I have to try

I'm blind as the gun is placed against my head
Only till the finger hits the trigger can I see you

I'm deaf as the archer steadies his arrow onto me
Only till the arrow starts whistling through the air do I hear you

I'm avoid of smell as the fire starts below my feet
Only till it begins burning my flesh can I sense your presence

I'm tasteless as the cup reaches my lips
Only till the poison hits my lips can I feel the aroma of your presence touch my tongue

I can't feel you... I can't feel you... I can't feel you...

I want to feel you