The sky was dark but the lights were blinding
The silence was filled with laughter and screaming
You appeared out of nowhere and came with us everywhere
Spinning on the zero gravity
Although just looking at you was enough to make me dizzy
In my stomach I felt butterflies
Was that you or the rides?
My head was spinning
My thoughts were reeling
Up one minute and down the next
On the ferris wheel of life feeling blessed
Drove us home
For some reason I didn't want you to go
That was the moment I knew
My life wouldn't be complete without you

Only 19 but my mind isn’t older
The world keeps getting colder
and I'm not talking about the weather
unless you count the storm in my head whenever we're together
Not sure how I feel about you yet
I don't want you to be someone I regret
Feel like we're moving too fast
Don't wanna make the same mistake I did in my past
I wanna hold you close
but at the same time I wanna let you go
I can't risk my heart breaking
you tell me it's a risk worth taking
Maybe you right
Just hold me tight
Trudging along in the winter snow
Please...never let me go

Listen
What do you hear?
Describe it to me
Tell me what it means to you
The silence
The laughter
The chaos
The disaster
Just listen
What do you hear?
The silence can be deafening
The laughter can be fake
The chaos can be only the beginning
And the disaster…is the end
So really...
Listen
And listen carefully this time

Where were you before the heartbreak?
Why couldn't I have met you first?
Where were you before the mistake,
before the promises became just words?

Where were you before the leaves turned brown,
before their color started to fade?
Where were you before they all fell down,
before everything turned to grey?

Where were you before the snow,
before everything was nothing but cold?
Where were you when he wouldn't hold me,
before I was so lonely?

Oh yeah...you didn't even know me

I am from "Shut up" and "Why are you so stupid?"
From an older brother who's opinion for some reason matters
From skinny jeans, skull shirts, dresses, and boots
I'm from cheeseburgers and fries with family and ice cream cake
I'm from hay rack rides on haunted trails during Halloween

I'm From sheet music that comes to life with each note
From the smell of my leather jacket in the rain
I'm from dream boards and bucket lists
From clarinets and microphones
From "you're Michael's little sister?" or "you're Mrs. Hanson's daughter?"

I am from the black, grey and white ball of fur cuddling next to me while I sleep
From my best friends tears as I beg her not to go and trying to make her feel better in hopes she'll be ok
From my boyfriend's smile that transports me to a completely different universe.
I am from days at work and weekends with friends

I am from learning:
There aren't always happy endings but you have to keep trying until you find one
Music and books taught me that we can escape from our reality
And my mom, who taught me everything I know