I watch the sun set
With it’s beautiful colors
The sunflowers swaying
The breeze is cool
The moon shows through the clouds
Just barely
And I can feel the heaviness
Settling
In my chest
My hair blows
Lightly
With the wind
But my body is solid
Weighed down by regret
Sorrow
Darkness
Pain

I miss you
Something fierce right now
I don’t know what to do
I don’t like my life
I don’t see a light
The only light was you
No one talks the way you do
Dont you see
Youre all I need
To be okay
Life made sense
When I talked to you every day
I miss you
Real bad right now
Please come back

I taste
Your lips
On mine still
I don’t want the taste
To be there
Anymore
I brushed
My teeth
I still
Taste you
On my lips
Where I don’t
Want you at

It’s back
The black
It’s back and it’s
Crushing me
How to be
Okay

And suddenly I know
About the cross on your ankle
The way the humidity
Poofs your hair
How you love New York
Cars and tattoos
Poetry and chili dogs
And you ask the excellent questions
Had me smiling from ear to ear
My heart was pounding
I still can’t sleep
Adrenaline from you
Getting to know you
Sweet, kind, amazing you

I’m trying my best to be okay
Okay
So stop yelling
Put down the sharp words
Quit making me cry
I’m tired
Please let me try
To be okay
Okay?

Sometimes when I’m running
I detach from reality
And suddenly I’m face down in the rocks
And my knees are ******
And I’m throwing up
But there’s no one to save me
No one to pick me back up
Thats what happens when you’re on your own
You have to stitch up the wound
Stitch it closed alone
And there’s sweat on my hairline
And blood on the dirt
But I have to put myself back on my feet
And keep running
Like I didn’t miss a beat