The moon huge
A rosy pink ball
Above our heads
Trees surrounding us on all sides
I lay my head on your chest
And listen to your heartbeat
Reassuring me
That you’re still there
Alive
And with me
You point to the starry sky
And show me a shooting star
Make a wish
You say
And I do
I wish
That I can stay in this moment forever
Here with you
In the peacefulness of the woods
And the sky big above us
The tiny stars holes in the sheet
Separating us
From the heavens

If you say something
And I don’t hear it
Say it louder
That’s how I’ll know
If we’re truly
Meant
To
Be

The mirror is my sworn enemy

I hate it
I wholeheartedly despise it
And, well...
How could it not hate me, too?
Everyone says
“It will be okay,
just give it time”
I just nod and smile
And try to believe it
But
No matter how hard I try,
I never will
Because it will never be “okay”
Not now
Not any time in the future
I will always be in this prison of a body
And pigs will fly before I ever,
Ever
Feel whole again

Music is escape
A place where I can melt into
A beautiful voice
A beautiful sound
A beautiful feeling

Music is safety
A place where I feel
Happy
Loved
Protected

Music is happiness
A place where I can
Dance
Sing
Be who I really am


Music is life.

My family has been through so much
Divorce
Having two autistic kids
And two typically developing kids
Just trying to stay on top of everything
But we don’t let it **** our spirit
Every day,
We dance in the kitchen to “The Greatest Showman”
And tickle our little babies (toddlers, technically, but still babies to me)
Until belly-laughs engulf every other sound
We say “I love you” constantly
Because it is true
We may be dysfunctional
And crazy,
And confusing,
But the love is undeniable
We are broken,
But if there were no cracks,
Would our true light ever shine through?

What is my purpose?
Most days I have no idea
Is it to be a poet?
To spread a message of peace?
Or is it to be a musician?
Or a mother?
Or just a person who impacts others?
I’m still figuring it out
Luckily for me,
I have loads of time to do so

Love, Beautiful, Life, Girl, Eyes, Sky, Light,
Hope, Will, Strong, Color, Power, Stealth,
World, Pain, Darkness, Greed, Red, Abyss.

=

EARTH

Though she had twisted her ankle
And broken a heel
She kept on dancing through the night
Every day, that’s how I want to feel

If I
Look upwards
From my book
To look at you....


You better watch out....



Because....



I must really ******* love you.

Off again
To sit in a room
And talk to a lady
That I’ve never met before
And pretend it’s helping

Off again
To stare out the window
And wait for her to start conversation
Pretending that
I have nothing I need to talk about

But
I don’t want to talk to her
I would rather talk to
My mom
Or a friend
Anyone
But her

I’m told
“You just need to warm up to her!”
Maybe...
But really
All I need
Is to be with my mom
My friends
And let that
Be my therapy

I would die
Before I let anyone
Hurt you in any way

I would take a bullet through my chest
If it would keep you
From feeling any pain

I would **** anyone
Who tries to hurt you
No matter the consequences

You
You are my reason for living
You are the ones
Who make me get up in the morning
And it’s always worth it
Because I get to see your smiling faces
Just one
More
Day

Once upon a time
A beautiful girl smiled at the sky
And the sky smiled back

Once upon a time
That same girl went out again
And smiled at the sun
And the sun smiled back

Once upon a time
That beautiful girl went out at the stroke of midnight
Just to smile at the stars
And all of them,
Every single one,
Smiled right back

Once upon a time
The moon knew it was its turn
To be gifted with the smile
Of the beautiful young girl
So it waited
                and waited
                             and waited
But the girl never came

The girl had something more important to do
Then smiling at the moon
No one knows what happened to the beautiful girl
But the moon still waits
Every night
At the stroke of midnight
For that same girl
To bestow her beautiful smile upon it
As she did the other shining ornaments
Of the sky

You fill my dreams
Like you fill my heart
You are the only one I need

<3

Rays of sun
Break through the clouds
And shine upon your gorgeous face
Lighting up your eyes
And bringing a whisper of a smile
To your pink lips

I stare
At your immense beauty
Inside
And out
And just hope that you
Will one day
See the beauty in me, too

We've all been raised in a
****** up world
With ****** up minds
I’m a ****** up girl

We’ve all been born to a
****** up race
With ****** up ideas
Coming at a ****** up pace

We’ve all seen this world as a
****** up thing
With ****** up people
Wearing ****** up rings

We all know how
****** up we are
But all we do
Is sit
And stare
At our phones
And think it will just go away
If we ignore it long enough

We’ll do this
Until the world ends
And we have no chance at stopping it
Because we are
******
The
Hell
Up

People write to help
People write to hurt
People write to inform
People write cause panic
People try to help by writing
But sometimes all it does is bad
People write to hurt
People write to help
People write
People.
Write.
Its what so many of us do
For so many different reasons
And who's to decide what reasons are right?

Why do I sit here
And read poems
When I know
That I have a test tomorrow
And I know
That I certainly have not
Studied

Thoughts swirling through my brain
I think I’m going insane

I don’t know what I am
Am I bi? Or am I pan?

My brain is near imploding
Body feels like exploding

Questioning is a hard thing to do
Especially when I really, really like you

It seems dull
Like nothing is left
Like the browns and blacks and grays
Never held anything at all
But the place is filled with emotion
Pain
Despair
The smallest flicker of hope
Dieing out slowly
Disappearing into thin air
Air filled with the dust and ash from a brutal bombing
The echoed cries of people attempting to stay alive
And failing
The streets dead silent
Buildings reduced to nothing but piles of rock
All thoughts of hope
Gone
Like so many people you love
Just gone
And maybe
You wish you’d gone with them

Eyes dancing with excitement
Skin tingling with heightened senses
She ran into the night with swift strides
Never to be seen by my eyes again

Sometimes
Even though I just mean to say something
Calmly
The force of the words in my throat
Makes them come out
As a piercing scream
And you just
Run
From
Me

Silence speaks volumes
A glance in someone’s direction
A sorrowful look in someone’s eyes
A poorly hid snicker
Something simple as the touch of a hand
Can tell a story
A story worth so much more
Than words
Because the emotions
Transmitted through total silence
Are the most powerful
And words are nowhere near enough
To convey such intense emotion

Though silence is not filled with words,
It is filled with feeling
Maybe people
Should communicate through silence
More often

Stars
They seem so tiny
So insignificant
So abundant in our sky
That each little one
Must be worth close to nothing
But in actuality
Because of their gargantuan distance
From Earth,
They are really
More than about 10 times the size of Earth
And probably more
Also
It takes thousands of years
For a stars light to reach Earth
So think,
The light from the star in the sky
That you’re looking at right now
Could have gone supernova decades ago,
But the light hadn’t died out yet,
Because the light from when it was still
Alive,
Is still traveling to us
So in a way,
We can see the past
Stars are incredible
I think
We could learn a thing or two from them
And that is why,
My friend,
I just wrote a really long,
Really boring,
Poem with facts about stars
I don’t know if I’m even going to post this
Well,
I guess we’ll see