In the beginning, you and I were like two stars in a cloudless sky
Staring at each other with such awe that we forgot that anything else existed
Holding hands and laughing and being together
Like two young people in love
But then we began to drift away
Stars with different goals in different places
You and I were like two shooting stars flying in opposite directions
Shooting across the sky in our own way, not thinking about each other
Not talking, not laughing, not holding hands
Just silence, and sadness, and disappointment
We weren’t meant to be
Not written in the stars like we thought we were
Just two people who thought it was love
Two people with everything
And nothing at the same time
We didn’t give each other what we needed
It was sad, but it had to happen
So I left her









i’m sorry

The perfect blue moon
Brings air into my lungs
And love into my heart
Know that you are my heart

Your hair blows in the wind
Swaying with the breeze
Beauty is all I see
Know that you are beautiful

My arm around your shoulders
Your head on my chest
Relying on only me
Know that you can rely on me

You staring into my eyes
A smile tempting your lips
I am so happy with you
Know that you make me so happy

Know how much you mean to me
Because you are my world
You are my light
You are the air I breathe
I love you

hands over my arms
our footsteps fall in the quiet
dancing in the light
her hand in mine
takes my breath away
our golden light
magic

The tulips of my old life
Used to bloom each spring
And though I love my new life,
I have found myself longing
For those tulips,
But most of all,
I have found myself longing
For a family home
A mother, a father
A sister a brother,
“The perfect mixture”
I thought.
Not so perfect after all, I guess

Today is your day to fly
Up to the heavens

Because yesterday
Was your day to die

I wish I was as pretty as her,
I wish I was smart like her,
I wish I was as extroverted as she is,
I wish I were likable like her,
I wish I was as talented as her,
I wish I was skinny like her,
I wish I was as confident as she is,
I wish I was normal like her,
I wish I had as trendy a style as her,
I wish I didn’t have anxiety like her,
I wish I was as artistic and creative as her,
I wish I had skin as smooth as hers,
I wish I was as good with people as she is,
I wish I was as tan as her,
I wish. I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish.

I wish I wasn’t myself.

Soaring over a gray, neglected ocean
Not a fish or strand of seaweed in sight
All my brothers and sisters, gone in a flash
I’m left to wander through the night

The only creature left on my planet
A tired, but majestic gull
All I can do now is sit and wonder
Where did my precious Earth go?

For humans have gone extinct
All fish and ocean dwellers, too
All of my kind, the creatures of the sky
There is only me, no more you

As the hunger slowly takes away my life
And my patchy wings are flapping weak
I settle down for one last breath
This world is not for the meek

Now not a lonely bird, but a lonely world
No longer a place of miracles
But need not fear, life will emerge again
Hopefully, they won’t be as pitiful

I feel alone?
You close the space.

Tears are falling?
You wipe them away.

I’m falling apart?
You hold me together.

I’m a mess?
You make it all better.

You’re in darkness?
I’ll be the light

Can’t find the strength?
I’ll be the fight

You’re suffocating?
I’ll be the air

Your heart is broken?
I’ll be right there

Green-eyed girl,
Your eyes stare into mine
With such intensity
That I have to look away

Green-eyed girl,
You know how to make my heart break
But then you just as easily
Put it back together again

Green-eyed girl,
I know my love for you is eternal
But please tell me
Is yours?

Green-eyed girl,
Don’t leave me
Because then I could never stare into
Your deep green eyes
Ever again

And that would bring me down
Harder than you alone, ever could

Her heartbeat steady,
Strong waves clapping against the shore

Her soul glowing
A beautiful, evergreen heart

Her spirit bright
Astonishing all who pass her

Her eyes staring
Into mine with loving intensity

Her voice wavering
But ever so sincere
As she tells me she loves me

I hope you know,
That my silence means
That I love you, too

Azure blue waves
Cascade down to shore
Devouring the sand
And kissing the tips of my toes
The whisper of the salty spray
A story being told to me
A song sweetly sung to me
The song of my memories
My memories of the sea...
Dancing in her lively waves,
Eating ice cream under a rainbow parasol,
Burying my toes in her warm, silky soft sand
The sweet memories come back to me
Filling me up to the tips of my ears with joy
How will we find this kind of joy,
I solemnly ponder,
If the ocean is no longer here to show it
to us?

Over time
After so much pain
Heartbreak
People I love not being there for me
I’ve learned how to feel pain
And though it doesn’t hurt any less
Each time it feels
A bit more ok
Everytime
My anxiety spikes
And paralyses me from the inside-out,
I realize sooner
That it is all for nothing,
And it will fade away soon enough
Because I know what I’ve been through
And I know that I can get through
Whatever life throws at me
Because I am strong
And with every painful moment
Every heartbreak
Every time
That someone I love isn’t there for me
I will
Become stronger
Stronger than I ever was before

I want to change my hair
I
  Want
            To
                 Change
                                It

I want to change myself
I
  Want
            To
                 Change
                                It

I want to change my situation
I.
Want.
To.
Change.
It.

I WANT TO CHANGE EVERYTHING

I WANT TO BE A NEW PERSON

I WANT...

I WANT...

I WANT...

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WANT!!!

I DON’T APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE

I SHOULD JUST SHUT UP

I LIVE A BETTER LIFE
THAN SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE

I’M
SO
*******
UNGRATEFUL

I’m told you’re not healthy
To be near me

That you need to
Get better

But that doesn’t keep
My image of you

When you were
“Happy”

From overtaking my thoughts
And invading my dreams

Wait...
Let me go grab a snack
I’ll be right back

The most relaxed I ever am
Is when I’m alone
After chaos
Just doing something by myself
It could be the slightest thing
Just for a moment
Like running into a restaurant
To pick up food
It is so therapeutic
Why can’t I be like normal people,
And have my therapy
Be other people?
Sometimes I hate being different

I try to love myself
And sometimes I do
I think I’m cute,
I think my smile is pretty,
I think I am likable,
But I think that really loving yourself
Means that you say,
“I know I am cute,
I know my smile is pretty,
And I know that I am likable”
But the thing is,
How can I say that I know...
When no one ever says
That I am cute
That my smile is pretty
And that I am likable.
I have no idea where to go from here
Help?
Please?
Because everyone just thinks of me
As a friend
My guy friends
And my girl friends
I don’t think that any of them
Have ever thought of me
In any other way
How do I show people,
That I can be more than just a friend?

You make me smile
You make me cry

You make me laugh
But then I die

You’re the closest person to me
Yet so far away

I think that I should just stay trapped
But soon I’ll surely pay

I come into this world
In the jungle, big and wide
I find a tree and cut it down
So I can see the sky

I build a small wooded hut
And place my little belongings
I long for more in my little hut
I need to make this home

Many years pass
And I finally have a place to call home
With all my favorite things
Hanging up on the walls

I love my time here
This world is my sanctuary
Yet I have to log off
But not for too long

I’m tired of being in my head
And never getting out of it

I’m tired of not being heard
When I’m talking, no one gives a ****

I’m tired of being hurt
When I don’t have a defense

I’m tired of being stuck
In this endless loop of the same events

I’m tired of being tired
I just want life to be good

For once
Please
Let something
Go my way

Whenever I try to write a poem,
I start with an unfinished thought,
And then I have no idea where to go from there

It is just that I alwa-

The only thing
Worse

Then you leaving
Me

Is seeing you
Look at me

With such hatred
In your eyes

Unable to see me for so long
Because of how much
I disappointed you

I’m horrible at starting conversations
Because I hate talking
About myself
Because I feel selfish
And I’m just overall awkward
And don’t know what to say
I’m shy
And I love it when
People start conversation for me
Because then it makes it easier for me
To get into it
I wish I was more outgoing
I wish I was more talkative
With people I don’t know that well
I wish I wasn’t as socially awkward
But I am
It’s just me
There’s nothing I can do
Or want
To change
And if you don’t enjoy being around me,
You don’t need to pretend
To be my friend
I’m fine
I have a group
Of really good friends
That I know have my back


So don’t **** with me

Your face
Two freckles beside your upper lip
And slightly plump cheeks sit below
Eyes the hue of the leaved trees
Your mouth curves into a smile
We laugh until we’re crying
Together
Apart
You
Me
Us