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I know very well how happy it is
when getting something
But nothing here is ours to own
I end up being afraid of 'having'
Cause at some point of time
It will be taken back from me
As it has never been mine

I feel that our time had paused
On the moment  we bid farewell
Then we live apart by far distance
And long duration
As the time flies
And the world is turning
Suddenly we reunite
Though in my memory you're still a friend of mine
But you who I meet now
Is a stranger of future

Walking along my way of life here
Suddenly the wind greet me by
blowing my hair away from my ear
I halt to listen its slow whisper
Then it left me grinning with the message
"the rain is near"

Not to go on, my elbow rests on the cold long steel railing
and there I wait for the time being
Gazing far away to the endless sky
As if looking for the cloud that will eventually cry

Arriving, the tiny droplets land on my bare face
The rain starts pouring
Ah again I feel this bitter taste
I end up weeping

Only when it is rain that if you cry it would not show
If you are sad, you are not alone
The rain accompanies you

There is a worst day awaits
for that day to be pay off

When you silent to agree or argue
When you work but keep fail
When you stand just to fall
When you live but not alive

At times, these thoughts become not mine
It is all kind of stuffs of anger, unsatisfied feeling, sadness and excuses
That made simple thing
Way complicated
Far deviated
But though I knew
It consumed my own voice, my very word
Made my language die

There is power to turn the table
But what will give you greater sorrow
when it is not allowed, but  you are capable
Or you are unable, yet they allow

When the weight of your own soul feels like too much to bear
In the darkest of night, where the stars shine brighter than ever
And each one will lead you into the dawn

I hoped he wouldn't notice
If not, it'll be a shame
Had he knew I loss focus
When I turn at him upon hearing his name
Had he knew I froze from awkwardness
When my eyes accidentally got up to his
We are definitely nothing
And I **** all my hopes and expectations
There's not a thing left so please
Stay in the different frame
For at least
I can just look and admire
Just this far and not nearer

Even though I see you
I feel far apart
I tried to reach you
But all I grasp is a piece of my broken heart
Is that really you
Or just my hope is too high?
Are you gone...
Or never there in front of my eyes?

Still need to pick up this heart
Though it is covered with pain
Stick it back if it falls apart
For tomorrow, I ought to live again

Bravery
For that he has nothing to fear
Courage
That though he is afraid, he still choose to fulfil the responsibility he bear

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the chances are low and the demands are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When all is pressing you down a bit -
Rest if you must, but don't you quit
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint on the clouds of doubt,
And you could never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems far,
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit

My eyes don't dream
This self wouldn't want
Should I let you know that
For me to desire you
I need to split the world apart
and make you reside only in my heart
However,
that moment I know I have fallen in love
but to be with you, it's likely a dream that turns into a curse

Age and year
Are passing through me
Changing my phases of life
And blend me into reality
Still sometimes, it'd get me isolated
From the road I walk
From the noises around
From the busyness of town
Sometimes I gaze upon the far azure color
An earthly creature
Wondering on the divine
Isn't here I born?
Why did this heart long for the sky?

Reality hits with " do you really think you can run away in the fleeting moment?"
At least, I escaped even for only a second

Zeal burns like the fire
Then it becomes sparks that floating in the air
I think I can win with my great desire
However it loses against despair

It is okay if different road appear

Don't be afraid of another path ahead

With the last strength you hold

Seek your future unfold

Success is not final
Failure is not fatal

Rise from where life trampled you over
Defeat, first, not the enemy but your own fear

Failure gives more to experience
That's why with it we grow resilient

Being happy is grand
A poor me can't afford that
Still the heart has its right
To feel whatever there
So when happiness is given
True it won't be long
So appreciate the moment
Before it'll forever gone

Step on the hard ground
Be where you're bound
Where else would you be living
And what's more can you do
Other than in this world where your life is given
And here is where your life is taken back too

Him...
that put sorrow in his eyes
Make it sparkle a bit like glass marble
Heavy eye lids, and wet lashes
His pupils turn deep black
And I was immersed inside
I felt as if we are
At the end of rain where sun slowly
peaking over grey clouds
Those last tiny sprinkles
Refract a faint colourful arch
Our breaths are still misty
Yet we are gradually warmed

"Can you hear it...this melody, the wheels of fortune are already turning.
Can the capriccio leading to destruction be stopped,I wonder.
O sorrowful warriors who must bear the cross known as peace, by the violent hands of a creature who knows not love , our paradise has been transformed into a chaotic nation where control is non-existent.
There is no way to end this calamity but to ask for you help"

There is tomorrow in today
And past in tonight

Behold the golden cracks of the dusk clouds
As the sun's falling below the horizon line
And the dark paint of night brushes across the sky
Its layer gets deeper
Until everything turns into a pure blankness
Ought to seek for the moon and stars
All of those that beam
Cause this entity of pitch black wideness
Is beyond my capability to handle
That my eyes alone could not hold its far

It is raining tonight
The view seems blurr but it still bright
How does moonlight piercing
Though the wet mist of cold clouds

Whatever you had done
What you left
There's prints
It becomes your past
That you bear all along your life

They witnessed her destruction
Then were left to wonder why
She saw nothing but darkness
Though the stars shone in her eyes
But maybe they do forgotten
When they failed to see the cracks
That a star's light shines the brightest
When it is starting to collapse

Mouth is shut, let it be silence and peace
Listen to the voice that will guide us how we speak
The intonation that you imitate for that is
the basic to get the knowledge that we seek

Matured
Like how ripped fruits is more likely
To be picked
Society's idealism is the maturity in an individual
It has been a standard that we must reach
And is even more favoured if we exceed
However, sometimes, when we push ourselves
Beyond the line
We fall as parts that can not be mend
We pass the line that meant to be our end

Sky is clear
Then twilight is here
Stars are falling

The things I cared
Also the things I scared
All reflected in my tear

A cry.. In cold and hazy light
About to be devoured by darkness and despair
Although the sky already pouring, her eye can go no longer bearing
Conscious that wasted on reality calculation
Exhausted, when there's the possibility of it was beyond salvation
Silence.... Deep one
Numb, dumb.... This foolish girl is still here, trapped
Thinking of how desperate I want world to favor me, with fact that world is only Dunya that is really long but ain't eternity
It's hard and just getting harder
Am I get used of running away? No good
It's not like that will lead me to a good escape....

That moment tears dripped down
In linear line
Crossing the dark circle under the tired eyes
Making wet trace on the dry check
Tightly the lashes closed
Squirming hard, full of desperation

And the eyes faintly opened back
Glistening
Like glasses reflecting tiny light
It is about sparkling
Yet the eyes felt burning as it burst
The pale lip shivered,
Words stuttered

Sky is gloomy
It cries and groans
There are blizzard and storm
Showing to the whole world
its pain and sorrow
The earth wets with its tears
Even the sky...
Let go of what for it too much to endure

My clumsy self...
What have you done?
Look at those regrets, all you had made
See how I unable to bear
The weep of the eyes
and pain of the fear

My poor heart...
What had happened?
It's so empty inside
and your light darkened
What had you put in there
that seemed to be taken

Standing out of circle
It's the place that I once thought
Would accept me
But now it seems like they don't want to
I hoped here I could reside and be
Alas, no they say. Oh what should I do?
In the end,
I will be left
in the land that makes poetry inside me

Everyone can be bad
Everyone can be kind
It's only them who choose which
And only they know why

All the pieces inside me is screaming
They cry for something...
I'll take forever to give

Even a messy paint can be an art
When the value shines over its colour
Even in the worst we can make a new start
When you put your hope as a humble believer

I put all my hopes up before the morning
And I woke up still dreaming
It's possible, it's possible
I chanted
But the the spell wore out
Everything cracks and crumbles
What's left is a wet wound
Dripping blood stains my road back home
What should I do? What would this be?
I stare beyond the stars into the wonder
There is nothing left in my power

O happiness
where else do you know it reside?
It is there in the past of your present
And could it be the last

I surrender to You in both fear and hope
But fear dominates more
That my hope is fading away
I'm scared to live as much as dying
I feel guilt in happiness
And sometimes I tremble upon joy
I'm jealous of others smile
Though I knew they had their pain too
I feel the worst of myself
I ashamed.... I'm not good nor enough

It's one
And never be two
You never know
It's you
You’re the first and the last who come
To me

It's one
And there is none after
It's always you
Not others
You’re the first and the last would be
For me