Sky is gloomy
It cries and groans
There are blizzard and storm
Showing to the whole world
its pain and sorrow
The earth wets with its tears
Even the sky...
Let go of what for it too much to endure

Sky is clear
Then twilight is here
Stars are falling

The things I cared
Also the things I scared
All reflected in my tear

At times, these thoughts become not mine
It is all kind of stuffs of anger, unsatisfied feeling, sadness and excuses
That made simple thing
Way complicated
Far deviated
But though I knew
It consumed my own voice, my very word
Made my language die

Everyone can be bad
Everyone can be kind
It's only them who choose which
And only they know why

Walking along my way of life here
Suddenly the wind greet me by
blowing my hair away from my ear
I halt to listen its slow whisper
Then it left me grinning with the message
"the rain is near"

Not to go on, my elbow rests on the cold long steel railing
and there I wait for the time being
Gazing far away to the endless sky
As if looking for the cloud that will eventually cry

Arriving, the tiny droplets land on my bare face
The rain starts pouring
Ah again I feel this bitter taste
I end up weeping

Only when it is rain that if you cry it would not show
If you are sad, you are not alone
The rain accompanies you

I feel that our time had paused
On the moment  we bid farewell
Then we live apart by far distance
And long duration
As the time flies
And the world is turning
Suddenly we reunite
Though in my memory you're still a friend of mine
But you who I meet now
Is a stranger of future

All the pieces inside me is screaming
They cry for something...
I'll take forever to give

That moment tears dripped down
In linear line
Crossing the dark circle under the tired eyes
Making wet trace on the dry check
Tightly the lashes closed
Squirming hard, full of desperation

And the eyes faintly opened back
Glistening
Like glasses reflecting tiny light
It is about sparkling
Yet the eyes felt burning as it burst
The pale lip shivered,
Words stuttered

I put all my hopes up before the morning
And I woke up still dreaming
It's possible, it's possible
I chanted
But the the spell wore out
Everything cracks and crumbles
What's left is a wet wound
Dripping blood stains my road back home
What should I do? What would this be?
I stare beyond the stars into the wonder
There is nothing left in my power

Zeal burns like the fire
Then it becomes sparks that floating in the air
I think I can win with my great desire
However it loses against despair

Even a messy paint can be an art
When the value shines over its colour
Even in the worst we can make a new start
When you put your hope as a humble believer

I hoped he wouldn't notice
If not, it'll be a shame
Had he knew I loss focus
When I turn at him upon hearing his name
Had he knew I froze from awkwardness
When my eyes accidentally got up to his
We are definitely nothing
And I **** all my hopes and expectations
There's not a thing left so please
Stay in the different frame
For at least
I can just look and admire
Just this far and not nearer

I surrender to You in both fear and hope
But fear dominates more
That my hope is fading away
I'm scared to live as much as dying
I feel guilt in happiness
And sometimes I tremble upon joy
I'm jealous of others smile
Though I knew they had their pain too
I feel the worst of myself
I ashamed.... I'm not good nor enough

No love is definite cause love is infinite
Not worthy of love you say easily
Not knowing the love God bless you with endlessly
With His mercy, His care, His gentleness
You spoke such words when you don't even know how love is
Love is not a thing of possession
It is a smile of a mother to her child
Laughters with your friends
When your mistakes are forgiven
When you're in need of help, someone gives a hand
Love is... The silence people choose instead of getting mad
So the relationship is not shaken by mere anger
Love is... When you do kindness in secret
not for the feast of the eyes
Love is... Not limited to romantic affection
It is even the smallest gesture
With the sincere feeling in their heart
To show you
Or to act to themselves
This is what we are
A family
Friends
Partners
Lovers
Creatures

O wind
Can you come blowing
Into my hug, caressing
Pass through these cracks of my broken soul
It feels like I am breathing
Despite this misery gradually growing
That this heart could no longer hold

I went facing a mirror
Meeting the image solely of my own
"is this how I am seen by others?"
Staring at this self that I  thought I had known

It started to get interesting
When a lot of myself for me was new
Then you told me our stories and how we had been
So actually this self of mine long had you knew
Better than myself that you even saw me through

I wondered...am I the one who deaf
or is it just me being too loud
I barely notice how is my voice sound
Where could has I abandoned this self
That, now, it has lost that I found

There is nothing wrong in wishing
for something foolish and fleeting
Just that reality has always put us on tight spot
between dreaming and awaking

I know very well how happy it is
when getting something
But nothing here is ours to own
I end up being afraid of 'having'
Cause at some point of time
It will be taken back from me
As it has never been mine

Standing out of circle
It's the place that I once thought
Would accept me
But now it seems like they don't want to
I hoped here I could reside and be
Alas, no they say. Oh what should I do?
In the end,
I will be left
in the land that makes poetry inside me

My clumsy self...
What have you done?
Look at those regrets, all you had made
See how I unable to bear
The weep of the eyes
and pain of the fear

My poor heart...
What had happened?
It's so empty inside
and your light darkened
What had you put in there
that seemed to be taken