Nobody has ever shown utter ambition to sit still and
learn from something I will either destroy my looking good
or I will warm another heart and tears will be part of the
scene.
Though its only once I get to be with you every week,
you are the best part I dare say.
Men like you fight the world to be at peace as they live
their dream.
If I could be yours I and if I were a magic woman
I would make the world a better place for your dream to come true,
and I would be your queen to support your every decision made
and for all to be there to see it.
I want to see it, as you are sincere in asking to read my poems
and listen to the harmony and lyrics of my songs.
I write and dream of us to be close
I am more than ok with being just friends as long as I
live my life and you play a great part.
I will cast you as the leading male.
The thought of you is what pushes me to try harder.
Tell me,
if you think of me,
while creating your magic on the screen
as you live your dream.
I will
be there
to see
it.
But now,
I imagine,
feel nothing but
butterflies when I see and
think of you,
and hope some form of magic
happens.

Look,
I wasn’t comfortable with who I was
either.
Listen,
I’m happy you found them but your becoming them
is shattering my heart.
Feel
the way I do one day because you will never be the one
to destroy a conversation because you said
something stupid.
I know you felt sorry for me but it was all insults
you had left to feed me.
I couldn’t believe the person you turned into.
You were at the start of the line driving for the first time
while I sat in the back after every tantrum.
Every tantrum was to get you to not only hear me,
but to like me the way I was.
Look,
you need to be ok with those of us who are not
putting money in the bank and who see counselors
in school.
Listen
to your heart and let it tell you to never put time nor effort into
jerks who don’t care about you.
When I saw you after a few years,
I was devastated as I felt your arrogance scrape my face
and turn it red and embarrassed.
I stayed behind after I was told with you
right there.
Since those days ended I became comfortable and you started
to like me.
I don’t want to trade places with you.
You live in a new country and I can be part of a gathering when I’m at home.
We changed and grew wise and sharp,
and I really do care
for you.

I lived a lie with you for so long the only way
I could express any truth would be
to humiliate myself.
Every day you would search and search until
you found the perfect reason to admonish me.
It was all because of who I
was.

Excuse me, Miss Princess,
I do not believe you are perfect.
Nobody grows by seeing everyone in
their low brow appearance.
How I told you looked beautiful though
you couldn’t bear to see your own self
in your own skin.

Though the advantages I take and
use to stand my guard will never
be anything you will ever work up to
nor will you accept yourself.
Don’t shame, just work.

Never let anyone’s appearance infuriate you.
Just call yourself beautiful.
I won’t do it again,
you’re just taking every hand reached down for you
to grab for granted.
Thus,
you suffer.
That is all
you ever
wanted
for me.