you ask
and ask again if I am okay
and I say I'm fine because saying that I'm not is to hard
...
3 suicide attempts
30 intentional scars
100 ruined relationships
is what it has taken for me to realise I am not fine, I am hurting
I want to be saved
I want to be healed
I need something that makes me want to not let go
...
days blur into weeks
thoughts cloud my head
,
its all to much
I am
overwhelmed
confused
;
beyond repair