I fall asleep
to the sound of my own voice
murmuring twisted thoughts
into the spaces
in my brain

i am a mess
...
trouble is a word i find myself connected to a lot lately

i'm making bad decisions that i know are bad but i don't have the emotion to care about the consequences.
.
when i wake up, the day ahead seems so unbearable and a feeling of numbness washes over me
...

i am lost

i am lonely

i just want to move on but i feel so bolted into place

silence surrounds my world