Don't promise me forever,
Who knows what dawn will bring,
Just promise me this moment,
For unknown are the tales the future sings,

We will take the days as they come,
And forever may come true,
But days ahead are uncertain,
So I live in the moment next to you.

Please wait for me,
I'm trying to catch up,
Trying to regain my breath,
I will stand beside you eventually,
Please wait for that day,
Please don't go on,
I want to make it to you,
I want to meet you,
I am doing my best to make it,
Plase don't forget about me,
Please don't walk too quickly,
I've fallen,
Please, please wait,
I'll make it eventually,
I hope with all my heart you'll be waiting.

The judge and the lawyer,
They are both me,
I defend myself,
As I condemn myself,
I am witness,
I am the murderer,
I am the defender,
I am the guilty,
Death penalty,
Or walking free,
The decison is,
Completely up to me.

The yelling, screaming, shouting,
In my head,
I can't focus on anything,
I have to remind myself to breathe,
I have to convince myself to breathe,
I have to tell myself I want to go on,
But it all depends on me,
It's all up to me,
No one else can save me,
No one else can lift me from this vacuum,
But how can you save someone you hate?

Just because I don't cut,
Doesn't mean I'm not suicidal,

Just because my blodd doesn't run red,
Doesn't mean I wake up breathing,

Just because the skies are clear,
Doesn't mean rain can't be just around the corner.

In this storm I can't seem to see you,
I can't feel your presence,
Only cold rain and clouds,
I can see the breath of ghosts,
Maybe that's what you've become....

Why?
Why the **** me?
Haven't you seen the scars?
Haven't you heard the hate?
Haven't you felt the pain?
Why the **** me?
Why?

I don't even fit in,
With the people I love,
anymore,

I am an outsider,
With my family,
my friends,

No longer a part,
Of what this world,
requires,

I do not know what,
To say, to do, or even,
How to act,

I am the outsider,
In a land full of,
Insiders.

I push you away,
But I want you to chase me,

I close my heart,
But I want you to keep asking,

I say no words,
But I want you to understand,

I know,
I'm a *****.

The hardest part,
Is that everyday I am reminded,
Of everything I threw away.

Who will hug your brother,
Who will walk the dog,
Who will help your mother,
And talk all night long,

Who will your best friend call,
When she's feeling down,
Who will be there for them,
If you let yoursef drown.

And now in the dead of night,
Closing our eyes is useless,
For when our eyelids go down,
The sun shines behind them,
Blinding our minds.

Let me kiss your scars,
Let me make them better,
Let me love away the pain,
Let me hold you together,
I don't care if it breaks me anymore,
All I want is for you to be okay.

When the joker comes out to play,
Do we not laugh with the crowds?

And when the clown is on the walkway,
Does joy not fly among the clouds?

It will rain on us on our days too dry,
When the hum of people runs out,

When we hear the sound of the battlecry,
We call our jokesters from his hideout.

Words are like lines,
You can mold them,
You can draw them,
Pictures are formed,
Colors bleed through,
They are mine alone,
No one else has the lines,
Inside my mind,
Only I can twist them,
To carve my pictures,
And so I paint them,
Everywhere I step.

A raindrop fell to the ground,
It fell and shattered,
Years later a flower bloomed,
Right in the spot,
That the raindrop had fallen,
A long time ago.

Letting you go,
Was like ripping out,
A piece of myself,
And then watching,
As I bled to death,
Wishing it was still there,
But knowing it could never be.

Just because you can't see your killer,
Doesn't mean they're not stabbing you,
Through the heart and head.

When the sun shines everyday,
And the trees are glorious greens,
When the flowers are blooming,
And the birds sing every morning,

You know a thunderstorm is gonna hit.

Tumble weeds and mistaken deeds,
Questions left unanswered,

From 'goodbye's to 'please don't lie's,
Pain completely transfered.

Sometimes I don't wipe away the tears,
Because I don't want it to be over yet,
While I feel the pain I think maybe I can change it,
But once the numbness settles in, I'm doomed.

Try, try, try again,
Try as hard as you can,
But eventually,
It is just too much,

You have just got to,
Let go of it all,
So that you,
Can breathe again.

You broke my heart,
By thinking you could fix it,
But guess what,
You never could and never can,
So instead I fixed the holes,
In your bleeding heart,
With the pieces from my shattered one,
It didn't fit perfectly, of course,
But it helped stop the bleeding,
The only problem was,
The fixes were supposed to be temporary,
I need the pieces back,
You may not keep them,
Or I will bleed to death.

We have lost yet,
So why are you giving up?

"She just does it for attention."
"He doesn't have scars on his wrists, he doesn't cut."
"It's all made up in your head"
"But your life is so perfect."
"You are beautiful, you should stop."
"You're not ugly!"
"I don't want to deal with your problems."


"I'm worthless and ugly."
"I feel so numb and need to feel pain."
"I deserve this."
"No one will notice anyway."
"They probably just think I want attention."
"They won't understand."
"I am alone."

I thought I let it go,
But it still clings to me,

I thought it was gone,
But it keeps reappearing,

I thought I could breathe,
But the wave crashes over,

I thought I could fly,
But the wind knocked me down,

I thought,
But I thought wrong.

Of course you're shaking,
Of course you can't breathe,
Because guess what?
Love hurts like hell.

Everyday I must heal you,
I can not live while you hurt,
Healing you is what I must do,
Why else would I continue,
There is no other reason,
For me to keep on living this tedious life,
So I will fix you,
I will try to fix myself,
But maybe someday you will be whole,
You will smile and be okay,
And will you still want me around,
Will you still need me,
And what will I do,
When you don't need me anymore?

Would I just dissapear,
Cease existing,
Living this cruel life,
Would I finally let go,
Or would I find another to fix,
While you live wholly,
Because I could never help,
Someone who lives,
So I will dissapear,
And leave them to lead happy lives,
After all,
They are much better off without me,
Trying to fix the things I broke.

So she was torn,
Because her love got the best of her,
Her heart was her murderer,
Her head was the accomplice.

I just want to let go,
WHY CAN'T I JUST GO?!?!
i can't do that to them...
that's why...
Why did this ever have to happen?
Why can't I just dissapear and leave nothing behind,
Not to be missed,
Not to be remembered,
Just to vanish,
No evidence that I ever existed.

Is it really so easy,
For you to hate me?

Why do you want me gone,
What have I done wrong?

Why does this hurt like hell,
Is that something you can tell?

Because if I hate you,
And you hate me,
What does it hurt so bad?

Musical notes drifting to my brain,
Sedative for my overthinking,
When there's no one left to blame,
Into the music I start sinking,

Voices of song to overpower,
The ones screaming inside,
Tunes continue to play as I cower,
Listening wide-eyed.

People always say things get better,
And they often do,
But that doesn't mean **** to the person listening,
cuz they still gotta make it through.

It would be so easy,
So simple,
No one would notice,
Until it was too late,
So what's stopping me...

Lethargy,
Seeps into my bones,
A cold chill,
Covering everything I know,
I can't concentrate,
My mind refuses to operate,
I'm so tired,
But my thoughts won't let me sleep at night,

And I am here,
Huddling in the dark corner,
Sobbing; trying to find my way.

I don't know what's broken anymore,
I don't know what has been fixed,
Or what still needs to be mended,
I am unaware of what is left,
To make better.

I don't know what's healed here,
I don't know what is still bleeding,
Or what has been cut open again,
I am oblivious to the change,
That has happened.

Well maybe I wasn't meant to live,
Maybe I was born to bleed,
Maybe the only reason I breathe,
Is so that I can have my breath stolen.

I know I shouldn't,
But why should I not?

I know it's wrong,
But why is it wrong?

I know I'm bleeding,
But why should I stop?

I'm hurting,
Oh **** I'm dying,
And it's all my fault,
You said it would be okay,
You said I deserved to be happy,
But now that I've killed you,
Do you still think I do,
Or do you hate me,
The way I do,
Myself?

I just want to love you.
While we're both still alive.
And I don't know if that's right.

U gly
N uisance
W orthless
A shamed
N o one
T ired
E mpty
D istant

My first thought of the new year was you,
But now I just wish I could forget it.

You think you're the wounded one,
But trust me,
She's laying broken and crying too,
Even though,
She should be the one asleep at night.

Am I still human,
If I can not feel,

Am I still human,
If I can't get out of bed in the mornings,

Am I still human,
If I have lost my ability to trust,

Am I still human,
If I can no longer love,

Am I?

Do you ever have those times where you don't hate yourself?
For a moment you look in the mirror and smile.
You don't despise the face looking back at you,
And you even wonder why you ever did,
But then you walk away from the mirror.

Five minutes later you come back to the mirror,
You look at the ******* in front of you,
And you even wonder why you ever thought you were pretty,
Why in the world you thought you were okay,
And then you walk away and leave blood on the tiles.