How many times must the helping hand
Be bitten, slapped or pushed away
Before it never reaches out again.
With motives pure as a newborn’s eyes
I offer everything I can to help
With what I can’t afford to spend
And hours I really shouldn’t take-
And every time it is a sham
And all my help is nothing.
All I want is just one chance
To save a life or make the day
For someone who is sinking
And without hope of aid or rescue.
But it never seems to go that way
The homeless throw away my blankets
And tell me they can’t eat my lunch.
They take my funds and skulk away
To add it to their horde,
While I beat up my aching bones
To earn enough to try again
In eighteen hour workdays.
Is there really no one out there
Waiting for my caring grasp
To pull them from a certain death.
Is there no one disadvantaged
Who will bless fate for the coat
I’ve taken from my closet for them.
Is there no life that will change
In the minutest way because
I strived with all my might to help them.
This is life’s unkindest blow for me-
That I’m denied the hero’s role
And every hand I reach to save
Draws back and turns to walk away
With laughter echoing across
The distance to my downcast eyes.
ljm
I wrote this back when I was working long hours coordinating events at a church that had a lot of contact with the homeless due to its location. I apologize for the whiney tone.