Sitting in this hospital drives me crazy, can't stand to see my family suffer, getting fed through a tube and having a machine breath for her, that's not something any person wants.
But when I walk around here seeing everyone else around here, has me thinking about all the other families, all the pain they go through.
I can understand, I feel it too, so for all those families going through this kind of struggle.,here's my prayer for you.
You're going to make it through, whether good or bad life has life has to carry on, and God will be by your side the whole time.

So I met this girl a while back, I'm glad I did.
Because without her I don't know what I would do, what can I say she completes me.
Though her confidence isn't the highest, her smile is the brightest.
She accepts the person ia am, hasn't complained yet, honestly that's a first, she has to be the one there is no way anyone could be more perfect. I love this girl and absolutely nobody can change my mind about that that's for sure. She's my blue rose.

People say to think before you act, but I can't do that anymore.
Because everytime I start to think I get paranoid and emotional,that's not a good sight when in public. But whatever I'll just keep being crazy, embrace the insanity let the world know who I am, be the freak I'm supposed to be.
Or should I just leg he worked shape me to whatever they see fit I don't know so just tell me and I'll do it.

I've been thinking a lot lately, trying to wrap my head around everything.
Maybe I'm paranoid, maybe I'm going insane, or am I just trying to fit in?
No thanks I'm Ok just being an outsider, I may not know what I am doing but I will be alright.
Maybe I should get a job, or just go out and do something with my life I'm trying to get out this place and just be myself.

Look at me I'm older than you and you think that I'm this awesome person, and nobody can do what I can.
Well let me give you a reality check, I'm not a role model.
Don't do what I do, don't say what I say. Don't try to be me.
I'm not perfect Ok, I got flaws, a lot of flaws most of them are my fault but that's cause it was my choice, I did this to myself and I've learned to deal with it, so do yourself a favor.
Don't look up to me.

Ok look I know you need me here and I know I'm a big help,
But at least take the time to say thanks or maybe show a little ******* appreciation is it to much to ask.
Oh now you want to get mad just cause I messed up something small and now I'm a ******* or wait what's your favorite one... Oh yeah dumb **** thanks, that's how I know I'm appreciated you know what of you want to complain so much do it yourself cause I'm done.
I'm so ******* done I really don't need to be here I'm here for you not for me if rather be far from here, if I'm being honest so go ahead just try and stop me.

One of the things you learn from being a
Army kid is how to hide the real you.
I got this skill and I've been using it for a long time so all those who think you know me think again.
If I'm honest with myself ,I don't want to do this anymore I want people to know the real me even if I'm someone they don't like.
So my one and only question is to my family when can I stop, stop with the fake laughing, fake caring, and yes even the fake love.
From: The Real Me.