Livia Rose

Livia Rose May 2017

I tried to find peace
I tried to find sobriety in your absence
But I drank nectar from your garden
Gorged myself in your absinth

Now my body aches, head swells
Tongue bitter, dripping ammonia
Withdrawals I'm too familiar with
Caused by a golden gods ambrosia

May 2017

Amethyst Fyre

Broken Promises In A Darker Place

His fingers pull the color from my cheeks.
"You don't belong here," he whispers against my neck.

I shake my head. I can't listen to him.
"Please," I beg. "I promised them I was trying to get better." To leave you behind, I almost add.

He smiles, sending shivers across my sight. "You did as you promised," he says.
"You tried and you failed."
My grip on the world weakens, the colors blur and fade...

He catches me when I fall lifeless into his arms.
"You can't leave me," he murmurs.
He cradles my still body and gold dress into his chest, his laughter joining hands with my heartbeat, stealing it away into the darkness.
"This is where you belong."

Death smiles at the stars.
He knows my fate.

He always wins.

Livia Rose May 2017

My Muse

I am in love with my muse
As we all are
But not all hold their muse
Not all have which inspires them

Those who do not are the lucky ones
For I have never lost
Something I could not hold dear
And I held you closer than all else

Livia Rose May 2017

Frost and Snow

I bet it doesn't snow where you're living
It never really snowed here either
But today I feel frost
Engulf my ankles
Put pins in my cheeks
in my nose
And I wonder
Where life has taken you

The first tracks have marked their way through the snow
Harsh black lines through the silence
That this snow,
Engulfing my ankles
Putting pins in my cheeks
in my nose,
Has created
Without you living here.

January 6, 2017 7:09 PM

Livia Rose May 2017

Drag on Again

I know the days will begin to get longer
My life will begin to drag on again
With the man I don't love
With the life I can't leave
I know my days will begin to grow harder
My life will begin to have an emptiness
No love can fill
No life can live
I know my days have begun to get longer
My life has begun to drag on again
But it is fine.
Because you are mine
Only in secret
In between our lives

January 30, 2017 1:07 PM
I don't believe this poem to be true. Not now at least. But i remember the bliss I felt when i wrote it. It's simple. Nothing special. But it's special to me.

Livia Rose May 2017

I Had and I Miss

I had this grandiose idea
That you were still this horrible thing
This addiction

I had this grandiose idea
That you would come back home,
Destroy me

I think I might have hoped for it
To make it easier to say goodbye to you
Again

But you came and went
And now I am sure about you
And I miss you

You're no longer an addiction
You no longer poison me
And I miss you

I had this grandiose idea
That you wouldn't leave
And I miss you

January 31, 2017 3:32

Livia Rose May 2017

February 2. 2017. 7:33 PM.

The sun hides from the city today
It is cold and the skies weep
As I wept on the car ride home
I shouldn't have been driving
Considering I couldn't see clearly
The city's lost its colour without you here

The morning after he left. I guess I was a fool to think he would be coming back to me. finally a goodbye. closure. Maybe final.