Hey, it’s me again.
Hope that I’m wrong
Yet I feel it in my bones
The answers right there
Longed for it to be untrue
You did it, didn’t you?
It all adds up
Now I feel that pain
Unrelenting suffering
No light at the end
A shadow that is blinding
We barely talked that day
Simply chased away our fears
Two kids lost in this world
Now it’s just me
Wandering in despair..

Once the sun sets,
The darkness consumes me,
Everything good forgot,
Let me lay face down,
In a pool of self-hate,
As my thoughts beg for an answer,
To the question I won’t ask,
I envy the dead,
Spitefully trudging,anxiously
Waiting for my last breath..
Till then I’ll just smile,
The **** fool that I am

I searched my heart and found nothing
All I hear is a chaotic beat

This void in my chest, now a black hole
Consuming everything within reach

Have you ever been alone in a busy street?
Looking for hope in a strangers gaze

The voices in my head
Roar like burning buildings

My sanity is all but drowned
Hatred burns right through the mirror

Shackled in this new found life
Pondering in the shadow of the past
Choking on sunlight

The rip chord pulled mid-flight
Sure do miss the free fall..
Yes the wheels fell off,
Sure did run out of steam,
The tank now reads E,
My compass lost at sea,
Sun-scorched sails no more swell,
No sense of purpose behind me,

Yet I know it’s out there somewhere
Maybe between then and now
That place beyond reality, submerged inside my dreams
Could be buried in the sand,
Trapped amongst the stars
Find me a boat, let me build a rocket
Just let me sleep..

I’m not the good guy
Just a troubled soul
I’m not the one you call
Just someone you say bye to
No knight in shining armor
Just a frightened boy in a mans world
I’m not your good advice
All I know shouldn’t be thought
I’m not the one to heal your wounds
I’m still bleeding from my own
Just a wanderer, searching for his role

Just one sip, here we go
It’s been a long day, it’s been toiled away
You hid it all day long,

One more sip
Put on that mask, let’s run away
Where you can lose yourself..

Have another swig friend
The pain is just underneath
It wants out, son, better push it back down

Get me another one,
Their faces haunt you,
Memories that scarred you

Ah, just one more
I can see it now, the light fading
The darkness.. it’s right there boy

Finish this one, you won’t remember
Clean the slate, embrace the nothingness
Welcome the silence...

Broken pieces, like shards of glass
Pick them up to bleed my hands
Never to be whole again
They don’t fit back together
No glue can hold, not much to repair
No matter which way they turn
What to do with these broken pieces
Scatter them to the wind
Or to collect dust on a shelf
Some long forgotten memory
Where to find the new ones
Discard the old for the new?