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Justin S Wampler Mar 2024
There's a button in my psyche.
It's not big,
It's not red.
It's buried somewhere deep
in the back of my head.

My thoughts reach towards it.

It's unassuming,
almost accidental.
Black in color
and not clearly labeled,
but pleasant to the touch.

A mental finger caresses it in slow,
small circles.

It's a super power,
a curse, a boon, a blight.
It makes my eyes glaze over
with drunken delight.
It turns up time,
and slows my mind.
It turns off the world,
it makes day into night.

It turns me into someone
that you wouldn't like.

It makes everyone who loves me
disappear.

I fear the next time I press it,
I won't know how
to bring
them back.
It's a bit dusty
for years it ain't been pressed
I'm a bit rusty
but sure as hell ain't depressed

I figure this is just how it feels
being sober.
Justin S Wampler Mar 2024
I'll burn for this.
It may not be today,
or tomorrow,
or twenty years from now
but,
trust me.
One day I'll burn.
I'll burn.

Through the flames
I'll gaze
into the tear-brimmed eyes
of everyone who's ever loved me.

They'll be waving
and crying,
but they'll be smiling too,
because they knew.
They all knew.
They always knew.
I never fooled any of them.
Not a single
******* one.

Honestly,
I never even fooled
myself.

Destined for the ashtray.
A charred, black fate.
Fuel for the Lord of the pit,
hotdog on a stick
bobbing and rotating
above my head.





That smells so good..
Justin S Wampler Mar 2024
Up too late
tonight I've stayed.

Blessed be tomorrow,
Sanctimony of weary.

Can't wait for
Sleep then
work, then
sleep.
Justin S Wampler Jan 2024
Ever have something to say,
something that you REALLY want to say?
Something you're dying to express?

But you just... let it go.
Because you know
you'll never be able
to get it all out.

Now imagine that feeling
for every conversation,
every sentence,
in your entire life.


God I want a whiskey.
Justin S Wampler Jan 2024
A quiet revulsion sets in
with eyes opened,
but only looking inwards.

There's a painting
hung on a blue wall,
and he wishes it was him.

Quietly, revulsion creeps in.
Always listening
with a subtle grin.
Nary a sin.

Ceiling fans spin
on
and on
whipping motes
and dead skin
into a frothy,
stale tasting mix.

Choking down every gulp
of air, quietly revolted,
yet ever smiling.
Justin S Wampler Jan 2024
I don't know what to say,
or what you want me to say.
I don't want to just say
what you want me to say.
I just want to float.

Salty ripples
lapping at my sides,
squinting at
the summer sunshine.

When I close my eyes,
I'm
there.

Stop peeling up my lids,
don't make me look
at this... this,
this bottomless pit
sunken into my skin.

I don't know what to say,
I just don't want to,
okay?

Ah, but it seems my preferential tendencies
are rendered sundered and inadequate
by your overwhelmingly imposing emotions, and it's like they never ******* mattered
one ******* bit to begin with,
did they?

I'll keep that in mind
for next time.
I'll know just
what
to say.
Justin S Wampler Dec 2023
Isolation,
when self-imposed,
drips with solace.

Home alone.
Dead phone.
A smile so glorious.

Lights out.
Flowing amber
drowns all doubt.

Volume, so loud,
reverberates throughout
every hidden inch of house.

It's just
us
again.

Mirrors
wink
and grin.

Saturated,
imbibed,
sopping,

dripping
with solace.
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