I cry out begging for relief
My hands pointed outward
A slow death , of poison
They ask what's wrong?
I cannot articulate.
No one sees my wounds.
They gather data in hopes for a solution, they've grown weary too!

So, take these! Morning, noon, and night. Give time, be patient!
Maybe so, maybe this is working.
Yet, I stop lifting my hands to the heavens seeking the grace and mercy I have always craved.
Now my mind is chemically covered, so I feel better now...
Yet,  what answered my prayers?

All the side effects
hunger sleepy useless
But don't have much choice
Ahhh to be normal

She sleeps so deeply,
Lips pucker without effort,
Slow soft breathing,
Quiet and still.
Her bright blue eyes covered by the
dark.
Her skin as smooth as the wind.
Her smell is pleasant.

She does not detect me.
She feels safe amongst us.
The barriers of our walls keep her protected.
So she dreams in delight for the morning to break!

I somehow can always identify the problem, but where does my solution lay?

He allowed her to trust him
Her eyes sparkled when he spoke
He swung her threw the air, as her laugh filled the world with joy
He called her baby girl, and swore to protect her!
Until...
He stole her innocence, and said her words were not true.
She kept his secrete for months, because he told her not to tell.
Yet, she was brave, and exposed the light to his darkness
Even though she was so young!


*please pray for my daughter who is only 9. We are having a very difficult time. She is so brave! I am so proud of her! My anger is more than I can bare! But I have to be there for her, so please pray to who you find greater than you!

Such joy in slumber!
Yet, nothing gets done around me.
As though time sits still, and so does the rest of me. What pleasure I find in sleep.

Show me where I come from? Show me where I'm going. Show me my worth and my value. For I become confused and I eliminate all possibilities. Why is it I self-sabotage when things get hard? Why do I make life harder than it should be? Your doubts and your Darkness are embedded in me, and I must accept that you are aware of my weaknesses. You will not break me. Yet I pick up the pieces and hopes to put them back together. I am Bound for hopeful things, I have a future in which I can reach, if I can stay out of my own way. That is my only hope!