When the world seems to be on different axis, why is it I feel you don't love me?
Or maybe you can see my thoughts.
All of a sudden my vulnerability causes shame, because I know, you know I'm crazy.
You survive me because you choose to, yet I feel I have you trapped. How do you love someone like me?
Don't look at me like that! Ahhh, please God help me keep my mouth shut. Feelings pass, and this will to. Thank you for apologies.

I always regret you when I'm done.
Yet your the less of the 2 evils.
Instant gratificationis is what you give me.
I devour you, enjoy every bit of you.
It takes awhile for you to show up, and a long while to get rid of you.
It hurts my feelings when I want to look my best. I regret you desperately.
Yet, my past shows that my other highs are too reckless so I choose you for comfort!

To rise with the sun can be as painful as keeping the shades pulled and the covers tights.
But I know with some stinging effort things seem better if I join you in the day.
"Come on Lisa, you can do this, God give me strength." So my feet touch the floor, huge sigh, and I try again. "No one can do this for me". I am responsible for my recovery!

How important you are!
Others take you for granted.
You calm the thoughts and storm, yet
People laugh at your simplicity.
I find you very beautiful. Sometimes I hold you for a very long time, just to feel your tightness within me. Then I release you knowing you will return.

Where do I go when madness arives? My character and personality almost melt away, and I can physically feel it happen.
I shrink, my vulnerability will be the death of me, only if I allow it.
Yet, I refuse to be afraid because I am worth fighting for. I am the perfection in the madness. I am Me! The madness doesn't scare me anymore, because I know threw it, the perfection will eventually peak. That perfection is Me!

No more will I ask why.
No more will I seek to die.
No more will I eliminate peace.
No more will I allow you to defeat me.
For today I am Me! For you are apart of Me! I embrace you in my life. We are joined together in this fight. You are the yin and I the yang. You were with me when my life began. I will take you to my grave, so what's the use to deny the very thing that makes me learn how to live life!

I have found strength because of you.
The darkness allowed me to search for light.
I seek for those who have overcome, for we have something that welcomes the calm.
I no longer am a slave to your lies, healing is where I choose the abide.
You will no longer steal my life! You once had me fooled that I was bound for strife.
Today I choose to live in the light, because darkness became to hard to fight!