I’m awake to my own crippling
Knowing that it’s crippiling me

Aware ite like my own branded disease
I’m awak to it...yet no one can see

So silenced by my own homemade fears
It’s something I need
Yelling out to save me
Yet no one is here

I’m awake
Yes, I know

To stop this madness
I don’t want to, but I have to
Let go

This boy, my boy that went away
Couldn’t make myself allow him to stay

He was the burn to my fire that caused my pain
The percipitation in the clouds that caused the rain

Here oh now
My heart reach lack
He was the one I gave everything to
But the one that never gave back

Allowed in my cries
Yet no one could hear
This boy comes back like a Holliday each year

The ******* and seize
In an old weary soul
So my mind won’t cease  
to leave me alone

The blood in my veins
He reveled within
The one who has always
Cause me to sin

I had heartaches
I had tragedy
I had broken people surrounding me
I had love
I had lies
The people to whom I said goodbye
My confusion, my pain
Innocence broken
But a strength to gain
I hope one more thing will come from all of this
For the sun and for my eyes to finally kiss
A heart still beating
A dream still near
Find the sun...
Because it’s still here

-Lindsey Christopherson