I sink beneath
the surface cool
the water’s embrace
chilling me
past the bone
and straight into my mind
I watch as the light
of the sun drifts away
guess I’ll never see
you again one day
I watch the sky
darken, and vanish
the fish start to come
first a thousand
the only one
stays and lingers
alongside me
I guess this fish is my friend
for eternity.

I lay, alone
in a field of grass
not thinking, just looking
at the sky of glass
I see a cloud
out of the corner of my eye
I feel it start to rain
and I begin to cry
I’ve tried so hard
and come so far
I flew so high
then fell so hard
my love doesn’t really
doesn’t really exist
and whatever I do
digs a bigger pit
inside my heart
inside my mind
and that’s why I'm here, of course
to hide.

I speak my heart
through hand and mind
I reach out to others
but alone I hide

I speak my heart
even if if indirect
I try to hold on
but my life is a wreck

I speak my heart
though no one listens
I cry and I shout
it makes no difference

I speak my heart
up to the sky
there is no response
so you answer this, why

Why do I sit
against this wall
or even
why exist at all
why should I have to
bear this weight
of others emotions
mainly hate

All I am is limited
whatever you do see
wherever you look, or not
I'm not, or should I, be
people talk to me
like I'm a work of art
but the quality isn't in the masterpiece
it's in the one who created it.

No time to talk
for can't you see
I’m not in need of company

Don't make me laugh
don't make me cry
right now I just won't bat an eye

I just need to write
I need to express
I'm not even sure if I could say yes

I can't stand much
or not for long
I know this isn't, my best song

I’m not good at poetry
not the best at art
but I have tried to give you my heart

Don't turn your cheek
don’t look away
I want to know another day.