Even prose will do
Anything to speak my mind through
I am doing my best to be of service to others
Sadly we do not exist in a gift economy
It's the journey I take
That will be lonely for most of the time
I see why they tell you to cling tight to your visions
And let people have their opinions
My rice bowl is my own
Even Muslims have a month for fasting
But it is still required to dedicate all you have to a higher power
I plead God to show me how good it will get
With the tears in my eyes
I seek repentance
I speak my mind
It's easy to let others affect you
It's easy to let others not affect you
Jesus
I'm doing the best I can
Which can always be better
But pray for the discernment
Between my own thoughts
and those not of my own
I give you thanks
That you give us what we need

I stand out in the sun ,
hoping for it to light up my missing deficiencies ,
probably missing vitamin D .
Likely .