I wonder if I'm being real
I think about what it would be like to be nice,
Do I speak my truths or set a trap
That with one wrong move could snap back,
Or do I tell a lie and be attacked
Or tell the truth and be set back
At times I think lies don't hurt
But when I tell them I lose my heart;
I lay awake thinking out loud
Only to find my mind making no sound,
But my heart stops at an end
For the lies I've told and heard
Make me sad and, finally put me to end
I want to cry but no words come
I lay there silent no lies to come

Everyday someone goes unseen and we lose another, everyday someone is hurt so badly the pain wont go away so they stop the pain, everyday someone loses their life and everyone finally realises what they've done and could've stopped it, everyday someone feels the need to hurt themselves because no one is there for them, everyday we lose another.

My life is different. It has a meaning but I haven't found it, my life never goes to plan it always goes the opposite way just like my moods I have no up or down just in the middle where everything happens. My life is in peoples hands but if they don't take care of it it might break or shatter leaving nothing but the memory you had and would have kept. My life has no meaning to me but I hope my life has meaning to others and that they take care of it because I am not able to see the meaning of life.

I feel the pain, I've felt it before but it has come back to haunt me, I thought I could get away but it has found me, the grief and analogy monster has found me and taken a hold of me and won't let go, I try to run but I feel as I'm just slipping away farther and farther from him. Why doesn't he help me, have I been disowned, did he forget about me, Help me father don't let me go but no answer, Please help… welcome home.

Life is when life doesn't make sense or function, life is when good and evil don't want to work together, life is not worth living if you have no meaning or message.

I want to explore, but this humanly body wont let me reach, it wont let me see and touch, it wont let me live a life I want, but it will provide protection to my soul and give me a smile to give to others like me, my body puts an image in others head and will put one in mine too, my body stops me but gives me life too.