Everything is closing in on me
I am trapped in this small place
The darkness slowly encasing my bones
It’s like I’m drowning
Trying to come up for air,
But falling back down
It seems I’m becoming dark and twisty again
Not seeing the light
But at the same time being blinded
To answer your question about being okay or not
I’m okay,
I learned
I moved on
Yeah, I’m stuck in a dark place
But aren’t we all?

I don’t know how you think that’s okay
Someone’s heart isn’t a toy
Someone’s feeling isn’t a game
I don’t know why you think everything is peachy
I want you to know that
I’m not going to talk to you again
I want you to know that
I’m not going to try to see you again
I want you out of my life
If you don’t hear from me
I ran away in my mind
Don’t come looking for me
I don’t want you here

People become friends with people just as ****** up as themselves
They find solstice in each other
You asked me why you're friends with so many people
And I told you that since what happened was so traumatic
You couldn't just be friends with one group
To keep yourself together you needed the variety
You continued with how there's no one to blame
I was speechless
I knew what you meant, and there wasn't anything I could say
See, I knew what you went through
I was there
Just on the opposite side
You were the sick one,
I was the family
Neither of us was able to control the situation
Just you survived it
She didn't
You both stared death in the face
You won
She didn't
I knew what it was like having no one to blame
Now I'm going through that again
She's 93 now, and is coming to the end
There's nothing I can do
There's no remedy
All I can do is watch her lie there, praying over and over again
I know life isn't fair
I know it's not perfect
I just wish I would have it be good for longer than 3 seconds
I thought things were looking up for me but they aren't
Behind every corner,
Under every crack,
There's a chance that something will go wrong
And destroy my entire outlook
It's funny how feelings are so ******* fragile
How with the slip of a pen
Or a single word
Or even one moment
Can change everything

Life isn't meant to be fair.
It's not supposed to keep you happy
There's twists and turns
There's not always going to be someone to blame for your pain
But there may be someone to help you through it
People tend to wallow in their dark place
Refusing any source of light
Simply because they blame the light,
For not shining when they needed it most.
So when the light does finally come through
They scold it
Saying it should have came sooner
That it's too late now
That they "like the darkness, it's home"
These people,
They aren't living
They are surviving.

Nothing ever happens the way you expect it to
How from one moment to the next
Everything changes
I never thought things would happen this way
I never thought good things could happen to me
I always thought it was downhill for now on
But since reality finally caught up to me
I’m not sure I can recover
It’s a small thing
That is taking up the majority
Of my heart
What I’m saying is
Love songs aren’t *******
Love is as corny as the movies modeled after it
What I’m saying is
When I’m with you
I can’t think and I don’t want that feeling to go away
I need change because then that means you’ll be there
Nothing ever happens the way you expect them to
And I never expected this to happen

When you feel sad
Please talk to someone
My bad days now come and go like the wind
I found people to calm me down
I realized I’m not alone
And
I noticed that these people will be by my side
Going through this mess together
Life is to be lived
Not survived