I feel like the past few days we spent together,
I have grown to love him more.

With every look,
and every word,
He seems to light a fire in my heart.
I love him more than I will understand.
But - the catch is
he is not mine to have.

Talk about having your heart lit on fire.

And you know what?
I'm not jealous of her.

I am jealous of what she gets to have.
There is not one person in this whole world that
deserves his affection and support more than me.

And look at where we are.

Sometimes, I am completely confused by your lingering presence.
Some how you managed to tattoo yourself onto my heart,
and it was the most magnificent thing I have ever experienced.
But, I feel like you labeled me yours
so that I may always run to you,
but never handed your whole heart to me
so that you may run from me.
I'm bewildered how our time has never come -
but maybe you've played you cards so that it may never be.
I rip my heart and soul open, and pour it out to you freely, when you lend your ear;
Yet you can't even explain how you feel when I lay next to you.
How does that work?
How is that not dysfunctional to you?
Do you really know what's going on?
I give every thing I have to you on a silver platter -
I even feed it into your foul mouth.  
But no decision is never made.
Your words are becoming a broken record,
and I've grown tired of the piercing noise it lets out.
You say you love me - but can't leave her.
But heres my realization....

*If you are to love two souls, let the first go.
If you loved the one so much, your heart wouldn't long for the other.

You said I was the most exotic flower
Holding me tight in our final hour

I don't know how you convince them and get them, but
I don't know what you do,
It's unbelievable
And I don't know how you get over, get over
Someone as dangerous,                                                  
   tainted
                                  and flawed
                                                       as you

One for the money, and two for the show
I love you honey, I'm ready, I'm ready to go
How did you get that way? I don't know
You're ******* up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
So why is my heart broke?

You got the world but baby at what price?
Something so strange, hard to define

It isn't that hard boy to like you or love you
I'd follow you down down down,
You're unbelievable
If you're going crazy just grab me,
and take me

I'd follow you down down down, anywhere anywhere

One for the money, two for the show
I love you honey, I'm ready, I'm ready to go
How did you get that way? I don't know
You're ******* up and brilliant,
Look like a million dollar man,
*So why is my heart broke?

I feel so numb,
but tears continue to stream down.