Thanksgiving*
It's all about families coming together
saying thanks and being happy
right?

Then why am I on the verge of tears
Why am I not even in the mood to finish my dinner
when I've been craving turkey all week?

Why are you calling me out
saying things I didn't do
calling me fat
before I even eat

Why are you treating me like this?
I didn't do anything
to set you off

Why can't we be a picture perfect family

Why do you need to ruin everything.

i can't remember the day we first met
but i can remember the first time we kissed
and you walked away
as i stood there and fought with all I had
to not scream and dance around in circles

i don't remember the first thing
you ever said to me
but i can remember how
when i sat in a hospital bed
and the nurses were drawing blood from
the crazy girl with sad eyes,
you told me that you thought
that i was the most amazing girl you'd ever met

i can't remember what you were wearing
when i first saw you
but i can remember how mesmerizing you looked
in the black suit your wore that night
when i realized i was falling for you

and i can't remember what event it was exactly
that brought you to me
but it was the best thing
that's ever happened to me

because now i have you.

My skin seems so paper thin,
So easily it takes the blade.
Hidden so no one will ask,
Because the don't really care.
This world is a joke,
People fake concern so well.
No one gives a **** about anyone else,
the only look out for themselves.
I'm guilty of this conviction,
so narcissistic and rude.
But still hating every inch of this skin,

*paper thin