I guess I’m not equipped for the tale of romance
Love for me is entangled with the first touch and the last dance
It seems befitting but only in the beginning
Because we know the outcomes are never faced with winning
It’s cruel to know you’ll never know how I feel
And how once upon a time I was ready to give something real
All the thoughts and written gestures with only the understanding of you in mind
If only you wanted to know and reached for this stash of mine
The one of a kind
Hide and find
To read and watch how water turned to wine
Slowly to mend my heart and create this aching bind
All the words that flow from my lips
From my finger tips
Every focus of you till the page rips
And I realize it’s here the moment we’ve waited for the big dip..
I hate that you’ll never know
Maybe cause I’m shy or maybe my pride makes me never show
So many pages dedicated to you
Dedicated to the truth I see in you
Little notes I take to learn you as a person
As they sit in the contact notes hurtin
Because I know for certain
Using all I have will only cause burden
I guess I can stay with out you knowing my emotions
If I can go on harboring my hearts truest devotions
So many unsaid feelings..
I just wanna know how you’re feeling

And I don’t fw forevers
You’ll never
catch me ever
Captain Cappin she saying forever

she lies

I don’t fw forevers
It’s cool if you stick around but I’ve found none of us own together
It’s disrespectful cause you’ll never stay the long way
It’s weird cause you could die rn anyway
Each one up and leaves
Because a connection is hard to achieve
It makes it hard to breathe
And the feelings I can’t explain make me wanna scream
It’s rooted so deep
Now I’m slap boxing with sleep
My mental my physique
It can’t compete
Hopeless romantic bedded deep within me
Over you I can’t find a peace of mind
People take a piece of mine
And leave the baggage of emotions to claim as mine
Everything’s catching up with me so bleak
Letting my love gather to form solid as concrete

I wake up sad I wake up thinking of you and you wake up fine.. with her .  It’s not fair because if you could feel the love I have for you.. would you remember how it felt when we first met when we first started spending time together when we shared our feelings and couldn’t keep our hands off each other.. IG my shyness my pride never let me tell you I did love you but it’s too late now. My heart broke & I cried when they told me about her. She’s so lucky…. I just didn’t think I’d be so easy to move past .

You know I could never hate you

I wonder if you knew the way I spoke about you, knew how I felt about you, and the way my mind goes at the thought of you would anything change

My chest filled with the feeling of anxiety
The best way I can explain is a lightening strike with my heart fighting me..
atleast I know who her is
Knowing wasn’t worth it
It’s hurting
Thinking ok I wasn’t worth it
I can never tell you how it was and how I felt nomore
She’s in the air I want want she has more than anything in my core
How could you move so quickly
I see now how easy it was to forget me
Does she laugh like I do
Talk like I do
Listen to every detail that comes from you
How you talk about your passions
And how you wanna take action
With your life
Am I right ?
Does she think your so amazing
When your down still see your sparkle that I’m praising
Baby
And when you don’t see what I see
Does she pull a me ?
Cause every goal you had yk I believed baby
What she got that I don’t have
The thoughts I have only wanna take you back
She could never be me
Or even half of me..

Is she pretty ?
What am I in comparison
Does she get it
Should I think this far I know rn what’s done is done

I’ll never
Could I ever ?
Not meant to last together
No forevers
Could ever
Get you back

Dancing in a snow storm
Again
it was below freezing now it feels warm
Emotional sin
Watching like a flower before bloom
The time spent together, Like unscripted conversations before I love you
Smile in your presence all surrounded by
I like you
You like me too  
Little things that seem to excite you
Personality
Like musicality
In my senses
And how when I come close your body tenses
As if I could spot you coming towards me in a distance
Spoken words in a soft voice
Listen like a cool mist that’s not too moist
I can only say you make me feel like a laugh
And intrigue me like equations in difficult math
A feeling I only like when your around
It’s sickening to have and beats in my mind like loud thunder sounds
Like emotions Comes the lightening and it’s striken me down
It took me one time to get close just wanna be near you now
I’m simping think about you all the time like right now
And I don’t like the Cold you make it warm like do I need to pipe down

Now I’m dancing in a snow storm again
How I turn my back on motions and let you walk right on in
And when our lips lock it’s like a blend
Of everything I wanted when I passed you back then

Look at me dancing in a snow storm again