I still dream about you
All the things we did
And all we haven’t done
I dream of us lying in bed talking
Or cooking in the kitchen together
I dream of us travelling
And staying up all night because we don’t want to sleep
You are in nearly all of my dreams
And I wake up sadder each morning

I find us in everything
Be it a game I’m playing
Pets I see together
Leaves on the floor
I see us in everything
I see you in everything
I don’t think it will ever stop
And we’ll never cross paths again

We’re back to being strangers
After everything we went through
It doesn’t feel right
But there’s nothing I can do about it
I am trying to be okay with it
I don’t know if I ever will be

I still want to die
Maybe more than ever before
I do not feel safe in myself
I haven’t in a long time

You’re the first person to kiss me just to kiss me
The first to mean it when you say you love me
The first to make me believe there was good in the world
The first to show me how it felt to be truly loved
And now you’re the last
The last to have their lips on mine
The last to trace their hand across my body
The last to say I love you
The last person I want to have

I want to die
There is no secret meaning behind this one
It’s plain and simple
I do not wish to be alive

Not talking to you drives me insane
I don’t know what to do with myself
I have so many things I want to say to you
So many things to tell you
I go more insane everyday
You are the only one I want to talk to
The only one I have the energy to talk to
I want you to wait for me to get better
But I understand if you don’t
I wouldn’t wait for me either